你要好好的

我恨我不够坚强，遇见事情总太轻易流泪

我能说些什么，我不知道

我应该做些什么吗，我也不知道

我太多事情不知道，我可能也不想知道

很多事情都很矛盾，我不能说谁对谁错

世界上存在太多误会，太多事情不能如意

你身为旁人，你是谁，根本无法断定一件事情的对与错

如果说他不该那么顽强，如果说她退一步海阔天空

如果世界上如果可以实现的话 ，那么不会有那么多不愉快的事发生

看着，听着，躲着，我想我不分心我会落泪

现在的他又是什么样的心情？怨恨？生气？还是后悔？

如果我遇到这些事，我想我会无力昏倒

但是这些事根本不会发生在我身上，女生潜意识里会害怕，有理智，根本不会那样倔强

忽然间不好的画面一闪而过，我真的希望这事不会发生在他身上

虽然他有一点不好，但是他还是...

听见他的述说，原来有很多事情不知道，听见这些我多想哭

但是...问题也出现在他身上

为什么他那么倔强，为什么他不知道如果改一改他的脾性这些就不会发生...为什么？

如果我告诉那爱哭的傻瓜，他该多么的伤心，能怪谁？爱上一个不该爱的人，但谁愿意？

谁对谁错，无力再去探讨，我真的无力

你认为我该做些什么，但是事情有那么简单就好

我也学会别踏进这一潭浑水，陷入万劫不复的地步，我深深知道，没人会为此感谢你，但却遭到另一方讨厌你，又何必呢？

走了，都离开了，我心在彷徨

太多不好的事总一下发生，我只想说：对不起，我也不知道为什么

请你要好好的,过着虽平凡但安定和平安的生活，一定要平安无事。

不写了，想静一静。

Seven Saving Yang

Hey, I'm here again, just do a little bit new update today. This post is about what happened last two day ago. I have dated with Shwu Huey and Jing Ying for a movie < Seven Saving Yang >.

I drove to Leisure Mall alone that day. That was my first drive to LM and try my first parking alone that day, I felt really nervous but I still complete this task, hehehe.

We have our lunch at Old Town and we talked a lot about our future and we miss our past school life also.

< Seven Saving Yang > is a nice movie. The seven actors in the movie are super handsome. One of the actor is Raymond Lam, when my friend saw him at the shoot, she kept hit me with her elbow.

After movie, we walked around and talked about movie. I spent my day with them, that's all. Seem like its a boring post again, sigh. Bye.

A day with her

Hey, few days didn't update my blog, I seem like busy but I don't know whatcha I have done. It's so impress if I started my blog post with my dilemma feeling on choosing my course, wasn't I write a lot already? So I'm not going to write all these.

I'm here to write something delighted me, something made me happy. I couldn't really say it made me happy but it has made me relax a bit from all these critical situation. I feel sucks when I called it as critical situation.

I spent a really nice day with her - Zee Yi yesterday. She dated me since she finished her exam and has a short break. At first I couldn't promise would I hang out with her or not cause these days things go really suck. I not even solve one.

She dated me for a movie and shopping at Pavillion and Times Square. Oh yeah I have forgot how long I didn't step to cinema to watch a movie. There're so many movies I wish to watch but I failed to after that incident happened. I don't even know what movie she want to watch with me and since she first dated me, I couldn't reject. I mean I take it seriously. She helped me a lot and I think I shouldn't reject her and I feel really happy when spending my time with her. Everyone say I feel happy not because who I stay with but it's because I can cope with all if them. I think it's not 100% right, maybe half of it.

I'm so sorry I made a small lie to my mother. I just didn't tell her the truth, I just tell her I will spent my day with my friend at her home. It's not a really good feeling when trying to lie on someone, it's difficult but I still did it well, at least my mom still dunno.

We met at her home at 11am and her mom so kind, fetched us to the LRT station before she go to work. To be frank, I know HK LRT Station much more than my country LRT station and I much more prefer HK Station because the trains come within 2 mins.

We bought Chatime drinks before we have our walk to Pavillion. We bought our tickets and I only knew she wanted to watch her idol -Hero's movie. Well, I have no objection because I thought it would be funny and nice as I have watched the trailer. It was still has 2 hours till the movie start. I was hungry, actually I was not because I drank a large drink but I felt weird if I do not eat my breakfast and lunch but only eat dinner.

At last we have decided, not "we" actually, is me decided have my lunch at Nando's because she ate her lunch at home already. Nando's - my idol's favorite restaurant. I ordered Butterfly Chicken Breast ( a new dish, the name sounds cute ) and a glass of Orange juices. Okay, it tasted really yummy and delicious as my favorite - extrahot and spicy flavor serve with Nando's special garlic sauce. We talked a lot and I ate my lunch really slow because I was kinda full.

One of thing that made me happy yesterday was I bought One Direction's box set and 2 CD which one is Westlife and another one is from Miley Cyrus. I felt a bit disappointed when I opened the box set and found those stuffs' quality not really good and it just like suit to children.

Lets talk some about the movie. So sorry that I would like to say this movie is just really normal, and a bit weird. It was so boring to me till I wanted to fall asleep and I can't really concentrate on the movie. Yeah I'm lack of sleep but once i didn't sleep for 2 days and went for a movie and I still kinda awake. I don't know whether its second or third time I felt the time passed really slow when I watched the movie. I can't even find a proper and meaningful theme for this movie. It's just like di not make sense. Of course the actors acted well but the problem is the plot of the story, in my own opinion.

We shopping and eat around. If its possible that I wouldn't grow fatter when I eat more, I wish I could buy all food and try it one by one. We back at 6pm and we continued chi-chat at her home. We talked a lot. Thanks her Mama again cause she bought me the dinner. A massive thank to Zee Yi cause I spent a really nice day with her, nice talk with her, KL one day tour with her, she lend me her novels and drama CDs - everything was just so nice.

对不起啦

最近很多朋友在约我，但是都被我拒绝了，对不起啊

我是有苦衷的 T^T, 别生气啊

由于本人最近得了《选择困难症》，自己还没选好读哪间大学，还是选什么科啊

本人有了心理准备到俄罗斯，到最后爸爸妈妈担心我离开太久，不舍得

他们又想让我在本地读，可是本地除了政府大学以外，其他医学院又太贵了

他们到有了心理准备，可是我不想花那么多钱去读一个自己也没把握的东西

所以哦，直到我做出选择之前，我妈咪要我在家闭关想清楚

所以真的很对不起啦，我也是很久没见你们的说 =^=

唉，本小姐现在脸上有两个很大的黑眼圈，自己看了都觉得惨不忍睹

本小姐还是一如既往没改掉自己夜猫子的习惯，正所谓：“江山易改，本性难移嘛”

可是我也不知道自己在忙些什么，反正不拖到天亮我是不肯去睡觉，可能是我怕鬼？！

话说母亲节要到了，没有要到了啦，是自己兴奋而已（难道你做了妈妈？哈哈，没有啦）

我喜欢自制卡片和礼物，其实不全然，只是自己很喜欢给别人惊喜，最喜欢是看他们的表情

所以做我朋友和男朋友是很幸福的，我很喜欢给你们惊喜哦

只是最近缺乏创作灵感，昨天买那些材料都花了我RM50，买了我也不知道要哪里开始弄好

太简单的我嫌普通，太复杂的我又不会弄，自己又没想到什么特别的，真是抓头啊

现在只弄了一点点，希望灵感之神快点眷顾我吧

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他，我最陌生的熟悉人（别想歪，请正常的看我所写的东西）

他变得很陌生，我一点也不期待，甚至不愿意与他下一次的见面

说我逃避也罢，还是什么都好，我不想与他见面之前要想好跟他会说什么还是会尴尬之类的

所以，就这样啦，可是已经无法避免与他下次的见面，叹气。

 

现实，偏激

有些人的思想真让我觉得匪夷所思，为甚么会那么偏激呢？

将所有人，所有事务想得那么负面，对自己有关系吗？

虽说社会现实，可不是每个人为现实而说话，为现实而变得更现实

你也可以说在职场上，在人事上会因为竞争而变得现实，甚至不择手段；但是你不能否认他人有真诚的一面，至少在某些方面

有些人现实，但不是在每种场合他都需要如此现实，那样爱出名，要面子，也许他是真心要与大家分享

有时思想不需要那么偏激，那么现实，这样不累人吗？

To The Beautiful You

Hey, I recently watch . Yup, Korea drama. Eh, I am not K-pop fans, why do I watch Korea's drama? Haiz, it's a long long story. However, this story not bad, have a big laugh sometimes. Let's the pictures speak the words.


Title : Areumdawun Geodaeege - 아름다운 그대에게
Title in English : To the Beautiful You
Genre : Romance, Comedy
Episodes : 16
Broadcast Network : SBS
Broadcast Period : 15 August 2012 - 4 October 2012
To The Beautiful You is a TV drama from South Korea adapted from Japanese Manga titled "For You in Full Blossom". This drama starred Choi Minho, Choi Sulli and Lee Hyun Woo.
Synopsis :
Go Jae Hee (Choi Sulli) is a Korean-American girl that moved to Korea and enter her most favourite Korean athlete in high jump, Kang Tae Joon (Choi Minho)'s school. But the main problem is his school is boys high school which makes Jae Hee disguise herself as boy.

Group photo

 

 

Main characters are the 3 people at the middle

 

Lee Hyun Wu
Aww...so cute!

 

 

我需要的是 - 鼓励

我好不容易才下了一个决定，一个真的很大的决定。

你知道我做这个决定也需要勇气吗？

虽然说每个人都会成长，将会面对一些自己应该学着面对的事

对于我来说，我不过是一个在温室里长大的玫瑰花，从来没受过委屈和苦头

对于即将面对的事一概不知，我不想假设或想象，我不知道那会有多可怕

有时青少年们就需要一时的一鼓作气和冲劲，如果选择顾虑太多，那可能到头来什么也干不成

我知道，我恐惧，我选择无视

对于我很难下的一个决定，我不想再去想，再去顾虑，再次改变，因为一次一次的需要承担的勇气

也许你们要给我最好的，但是在你们说我必须成长的时候，我已经成长

我不能说你们没有担忧，但是即将面对困难和波折的是我，如果你们再危言耸听，我真的不知道自己该怎样面对，我真的会退缩

我放空自己，放空思想；我选择在面对困境的时候发挥人性潜意识的面对难题，征服难关的本性

人一就成功，要不失败；一就努力跨越它，二则向它低头

我一向喜欢“到时才算”，那就真的让我“到时才算”，我似乎别无选择，因为我剥削了我自己的权利

人生没有完美，你想要拥有一些，必须放弃一些。

我不想再去知道我会面对什么难题，面对什么挫折，面对那些会让人发恶梦的可怕东西

我只想在现在的每一分每一秒去做一些会让我未来的问题减少的事情，无论什么，即使一丁点也好

“别小看每天小小的耕耘，它会是你成功的关键”

也许很难，真的很难，为什么要那么难，可我别无选择，除了克服，还有别的途径吗

我希望我会得到大家的鼓励，你们的鼓励将会是我熬下去的蜜糖

神一直都在眷顾我，我希望祂会一直保佑我 --- 直到成功

选择困难症

我看我就快要有选择困难症。

这几天反反复复，做了不同的决定，我还是不知道自己要的是什么。

上个星期就决定了读Foundation In Science and continue study Medical Course at Russian. 给了订金以后又发觉TMC COLLEGE好像没那么好，因为很多人都不知道这个学院的存在。

接下来的那个星期就不停的问人，上网找资料。有点气馁的是得到的全部都是负面回应，听了几个医生朋友的意见以后更是对自己的决定迷茫。就在前天就想去转Business Course，我真的怕自己应付不来。但是在午夜起来，我就问我自己真的要拿Business吗，做生意人不一定成功，有可能自己读了出来是一个打工女。这是我真的想要吗？这是不可能的事，因为我无法接受我赚的工钱比爸爸少，而且我还受高等教育。从小生在的温室里的玫瑰花，忽然要到温室外的花园接受风吹雨打，我很难接受。诶，说我娇生惯养也罢，说我不能吃得苦中苦也好，我无法接受失败。（ 不过我完全没有大小姐性格，我也不是很有钱那种，我只是个没吃过苦的女孩儿，我也不想去吃苦）

昨天就去了HELP University, 那边的advisor就劝我拿A-Level，可能有机会拿Scholarship，也可以认清自己的方向。听了以后我又觉得有道理，就转去拿A Level。今天约了TMC College的Dr Ho拿回订金，他又尽了一番口舌来跟我讲。全程讲解我一直保持微笑，一直保持缄默。不能不说Dr Ho是一个推销人才，当然他的话很有道理，也是一个很帅的中年人。当他听到我要去Taylor University拿A-Level的时候，他就说那里是贵族学校，我居然拿这么多钱只为了读A-Level,而且很高八仙率考到不好的成绩回来。他说他驾C Class Mercedes, 那边的学生就驾RM 300K-400K的Posture还是什么的。他问我要驾什么车去，他讲爸爸赚钱辛苦啊！当然，他认为我们选择到Russia读就是很穷的那种，他不知道我爸爸驾的车，他不知道我驾的车。当然，我在这里不是炫富，我选择到Russia是因为不想浪费那么多的钱只为了读个普通医生回来，万一我赚不会来不是亏大了？！虽然爸爸到最后愿意卖房子让我到澳洲读，可是基于几个原因我也没很想，虽然我很喜欢出国。

到了最后我们还是选择拿回支票，Dr Ho一直对我说很可惜，为什么我要退缩，要放弃。真的要谢谢他啦，不管他是为他那份commission 也好，还是真心要帮我也罢，我看得出他快要被气得冒烟了。

上车离开以后，妈咪忽然说：＂不知道他看到我们老爸驾Mercedes 有什么感想？女儿你以后驾爸爸的车去。＂我无言了。

我发觉其实我已经开始要拿医科了，因为当我要放弃的时候，我一直失眠。算了吧，死就死，泼出去吧，再优柔寡断我也不知道要什么。学俄罗斯语就俄罗斯语吧。难就难吧，开刀就开刀吧，见尸体就尸体吧！

其实我还没将想法跟我父母讲，妈咪深夜就来到我的房间说：＂我和爸爸决定了，卖掉我们投资的房子，准备RM700K给你，你要拿Business，就当给你做生意用；你要去私人读医生，就留给你出国用。我开口：＂我两个都没有要诶〜＂＂啊？＂＂我要去俄罗斯了。＂＂又换了？你又讲文凭可能不够好？＂＂算了吧，政府医院回请瓜，到时才算啦！＂＂将啊，可以啦，害我们商量那么久该买哪间给你当学费＂＂那你要哪一间读FIS？＂＂不懂哦＂

真的谢谢他们这么支持我，去尔罗斯我会选择贷款，反正赚了钱慢慢还就是了。希望明天我醒来又不会有改变主意了。真的是波折重重啊！

选科了啊

大致上已经决定要读医科了吧，无论是被要求也好，没兴趣也罢，都算了吧

好不容易决定了就不想再更改，我们都无法预测结局会是怎样，太多顾虑就什么事也无法决定好

会不会很难啊？要离乡背景啊？要学俄罗斯语哦？适应得了吗？

太多疑问了都得不到解答，很多答案都见仁见智，上网查的资料只会让自己心灰一冷

算了，顺其自然吧，＂马死落地行＂！

不知道努力了的我会是一个怎样的样子，成绩会不会变得好呢？

很快很快的，忙碌的生活就要开始了，已经忘了累到喘不过气来的感觉是怎样啦

其实自己有累到喘不过气来吗（疑惑中）？我想是看戏看到不够睡才有吧，哈哈哈

希望自己的英语和素未谋面的俄罗斯语可以好好相处，发挥发挥。

光想到这些就够累人的，到时才算罢，我的惰性啊

我想有一个去俄罗斯的好处就是 - 看帅哥美女！他们可是出了名的＂漂亮＂啊

有人跟我说我们马来西亚人去到那是排在尾指，就是样貌比不上啦，话说还想交个男友呢

如果一去俄罗斯就去六年呢，虽然似不可思议，但哪知道会不会发生，反正暂时的决定就是这样了

看来未来的一年里要好好与大家farewell一下，都不知何日再见呢

看来选科的事大大影响了我的心情和心智，都变得不活跃了

还是乖乖看英文书吧，对了，谢谢哥送我哈里的书，开心死了

昨天就翻了一个章节，我想这本是我最快看完的英语书吧，加油加油