好幸运啊

怎么今天那么幸运？呵呵，我很开心哦

谢谢他们，让我今天高兴的轻飘飘的（昨天我还很不开心呢！）

今天如往常一样去上课，认识了一新朋友
（不过有一点郁闷，七个学生只有我一个女的==）

在上半环节我赢了游戏，大家买了一杯Coffee Bean奖励我

我们昨天有一个作文比赛，无法完成的学生可以带回家完成。不过我个人觉得这个比赛不是很公平，也不能测试学生的水准到哪里〜评审们有两组，一组是学生，一组是男老师Sam。奖品是学生会多一个奖状，其实我也没想拿啦，因为这个奖状不能代表什么，又不能带到公司去申请工作当加分题。

题目是

其实昨天在课堂上我大致上都完成了，不过我还是带回家去查看有什么grammar and vocabulary mistakes。你想知道我写谁吗？我写的是我的物理老师^_^我也不知道在人前人后称赞他多少次了

在交给老师评分之前，老师将我们的作品贴在墙上，然后给我们15分钟读完其他学生的作品，将自己想要投给的学生名字写在纸条上，秘密交给老师。

我们一班有七个人（有三个没来）其中两个的作文我觉得很好，文法胜过于我。有一个作品是写关于他爸爸，虽然他的用字很深（他做了很多准备功夫），可是他的语法太多错误。不过我本人觉得太深奥了，写很多过于政治的，不是很有兴趣阅读。另外一个是写中国皇帝-秦始皇，虽然用词还不错，也没语法错误，不过有点像写历史作业，因为他在写他的一生传奇（讲来讲去，你写到最好？！）没有啦，如果我给自己的作品评分的话。没有语法错误，但是用词太过简单，没有深度。

在投票环节，我选择投给写秦始皇的男生。老师将所有票集合起来，会将纸条上的名字贴在作品下。我认为大多数会把票投给他，因为他写的真的很不错。老师直呼：＂Wao, it's so interesting." 老师慢条斯理的移动到写秦始皇男生的作品，一张，两张贴上去。然后再慢慢移动脚步，走上走下，然后走到我的作品下贴一张，再一张，再一张，然后剩下的全部都贴在我那边,我赢了五张票。＂Congratulation, Valance."我真的太讶异了，大家鼓掌的时候都忘了说谢谢。哪里知道Sam诺有所思看着我说:" Valance, seems like you have so many admires here." 然后全班男生看着我，我本来要大声喊:" No, it's because I wrote better."但是还是将话吞进肚子里，因为这样真的很厚脸皮。过后就脸红红看地板，可能人家真的觉得我写的比较好，因为我的虽然用词简单，可是就像看一篇故事一样，不会乏味，而且很有真实感。于是我就得到了一张certificate,真的谢谢大家，将票投给我，放学后大家还来恭喜我，真的谢谢你们。

好感动啊，不愉快的事都抛到脑后了。
今天好开心 :)

New friend

I was too angry yesterday.

Just let everything go, you still can't get what you want if you're still angry.

Let's talk about my classmate today.

There's new student in my class today. He looks like Japanese, but actually he is Malaysian. He came and he just sat beside me.

The seat arrangement was changed, so I'm sit with the Malay girl who come from Japan, but she always absent and lated, this made me become alone. It's good the boy sit beside me now.

His name is Meng. He's 20 years old. He lives in Bukit Jalil and he's same with me, which drive to British Council everyday. He was student of the One Academy but he dropped the subject because he found its hard and he can't get the good rest.

Today lesson we have a game. This game is about to find the grammar and vocabulary mistake in the sentences. We're divided into 2 groups. At first I thought my group was going to lose because the 2 guys not even go through the sentences. They don't know how to do. The guys from another group is quite strong actually. But never play, never know. My group won the games finally. Everyone clamped their hands for me. Thank you Thank you. Yes, I'm here to show off, no la, I just feel very happy so I want to share it. Nothing is impossible.

What?! Teacher wanted the students mark the essay which done by their partner? Well well well...my partner was a guy come from Africa. His essay quite difficult to understand cause he used so many vocabularies that I don't know. I'm praising actually. But unfortunately, I found there're so many grammar mistakes and I even not dared to correct it because I didn't know whether I'm right or wrong. He marked my essay and WTF, he marked so many things wrong but the teacher told me all of that are correct, so he would mark again later. God bless me.

Well, the class is going to start. End here, bye sweetheart. :) <3

无所谓

真的算了，不想再烦。
我也不想说什么，费事影响感情。
我收到了，我默默收在心里。
心意，真的很重要。
我真的很过意不去，真正对我好的人自己一直没在珍惜
一句话，他们就飞扑出来，什么话也没说
而我却没把他们当成最重要的朋友，他们应该在前十位。
虽然我们话没那么投机，可是人家愿意为了自己，放下一切而付出时间和精神

＂付出不等于收回＂我问自己是不是想要得到什么
我的心在说不，我只是有小小得奢望而已
不管是什么，有心就够了

我问他们是不是我太奢望了，他们说＂这就是友情＂
谢谢，这一份友情。

刚认识的一班外国朋友，他们要约我
不管是不是有目的，还是原意不再此
他们说要和我一起庆祝，吃饭和看戏
不管我答不答应，先说：＂Thank you so much. I appreciate it."

原谅我抱怨，我很不开心
如果你觉得你生气，你可以关掉它
如果你不爽，你就说一声
我知道我该做什么了
我每次在开导别人，安慰别人
我坚强太久，让人都以为我很坚强
我喧哗的表面下有个孤独的我

我了解自己，我不愿说出自己脆落的一面，我不洒脱，我做作
我不会将自己的弱点说出来，我不喜欢我也不说，我其实生气也不表达，我装作无所谓

真的无所谓

Delay Birthday Celebration

Haiz, I feel sad. Everyone is busy, my birthday is just around the corner, everyone told me the celebration need to delay. I should understand them, they're flooded by homework, assignment, presentation and exam. Yes, I know all of their problem, so I'm here just telling you I'm unhappy. I'm not here to complain.

I can't act like nothing happened. I still remember how was the last year birthday celebration, so many people celebrated with me. The memories are so wonderful. After graduated, we seldom meet each other, we don't keep in touch, we're busy for university life and we can't celebrate each other birthday.

Let me alone.

OMG...1,2,3,4,5,6,7 were texting to me!

Why so many people came to chat with me suddenly? I have been busy whole night long on the Facebook. Damn, I wished to do revision actually.

One or two of them talked about love stuffs. Girls, I have no idea about that as I'm single, yup. If you ask me I only have evil idea to share about, that's my aim.

I feel really curious why he asked me about homework, he can ask his friend what?! I felt weird when I saw his message. He told me he couldn't get up from bed because his bones seems like broken. He got a cold. Hmm, well, so why you explained all these? I'm wondering.

Oh my dear friend, you can tell me everything about God but not ghost especially in the middle of the night. It's so scary, men! I need to sleep please. I have very good imaginative, don't you know that. But, actually it's quite boring when you tried to tell me everything about God, something like God creates something, or God bless us all the time.

Oh, my dear, you said you do not keep contact with old friends already. How sad when I heard this. You meet new friends and you ignore the old ones? We have met for 4 years and you told me you don't think you want to contact each other?

Another said she miss me badly, she kept questioning me but that time my mom was talking to me. My mom even asked me whether I can stop texting or not. Can you make your decision you own, I don't know, you should give me surprise, not I'm going to tell you everything.

Another one who surprising me, HIM. The one always give me hope and break it hardly. He always break his promises. And now, he makes another promise again. He told me we'll meet before he leave Malaysia. Yes, he will study abroad for coming year. I used to believe these all last time but now I don't. I don't want disappointed. It's hurt, you know. I don't want be serious anymore. Just let see, would he remember the promises he has made? But I'm happy for him, he's gonna graduate next year. He's intelligent. I know he's good in English, and he kept saying something I wasn't understand, too deep to know. I was just confusing. We're from different world. It's always be.

I know I'm unfair...you can see from the paragraph clearly. I'm sorry. Every time come to this, I will be like that.

My skirt

Is my short skirt very beautiful? Hehe.

When I passed by, I heard someone said :" oh, I love the skirt so much."

Arabian: oh, your skirt very nice ya, so sharp and colorful."

Actually I also like this skirt very much. :)

股票经济房地产

唉，我有一位朋友竟然因为我妈妈时常对我讲股市，房地产和投资而感觉开心。她天不知道我每天都在听一样的东西，基本上一天要听两轮。实际上我妈妈所分析的什么股票行情和房地产投资每一天都是一样的，她对市场的见解和解释都是不变的。我倒觉得没什么新鲜感，如果你说你是非常成功的，你有你自己独一番的见解，当然另当别论

我每天都在听，都感觉厌倦。父母要投资房地产，也要拉扯我，要我给意见，请问我能给什么意见呢？你们都说我还小，对房地产的负面问题没有了解。最不喜欢的就是每次我冲凉冲到一半，我妈咪就来敲我门要谈这些事情，要帮她看文件，要帮她发信息还是什么之类的。

不过其实这些都是他们很小的要求，我不应该抱怨什么，虽然我每次脸色会很不好，但是抱着毛巾的我要帮你们看文件，心情应该也不会好到哪里去。我无法自制自己的脸色，每次我都会很不耐烦，我在想着如何改变啊。以前我还小，还不会驾车，每次补习都会载送我来回，他们应该也觉得挺烦的吧。所以也是要体谅他们，如果他们会就不用叫我做这些事了。

唉，我十八岁，算是大还是小？他们觉得我应该每天看报纸，观察下市场，了解股票经济房地产，可是我没兴趣。他们说这是留给有准备的人。是啦是啦，可是我的慢慢培养兴趣，天知道这是多么的乏味无趣。

太多事都要学了，我觉得自己应该一步一步来，而不是全部一起进行，这样会两头不到岸。加油加油吧

晚安

啊，又懵懵懂懂的过了一天，时间都耗在网络上，明天要温习咯。困了，去睡了，多早啊。

晚安，宝贝们

我也是喜欢华人男生的

今天有个金发碧眼的帅哥来我们课室借东西，然后看见我，对我甜甜的笑。

我也甜甜的笑，心底里却如海洋般汹涌

有一个男生问我：＂你将喜欢外国人，那你不会喜欢华人的咯？＂

＂外国人看起来很帅嘛,谁都喜欢看养眼的东西啦＂

他：＂你好像没回答到我的问题？＂

＂嗯，我是跟喜欢外国人啦，有的选当然好咯。但是也不能说我不喜欢华人，只是没遇上对的人啊，所以怎样喜欢哦？＂

他：＂就代表你是会喜欢华人的？＂

＂看咯，有感觉就是喜欢咯。因为我本人比较会被外国人吸引，但是如果感觉不错都可以的啦，不要讲到我好像排华，我自己也是华人啊。＂

＂对咯，很多学生讲你是来自中国，还有日本！＂

＂咯，我不觉得。他们眼睛有问题＂

。。。

其实大家都喜欢看帅哥啊，而且正常来说外国人的样子都长得比较好看的，所以这是我比较疯狂的原因吧？虽然我朋友说她们也觉得外国人长得好看，但从来没想过要与他们又发展的机会，跟我不一样。

也是的，爱看韩剧的时候，无论那些韩国美男子多么帅也好，我也只是打自心底说＂好好看啊＂可是当以给金发碧眼的外国人出现在韩剧里，我都还是会陷入疯狂，直呼好帅好帅

我喜欢的偶像团体那五个成员也没长得很帅啊，但是就是一种感觉，我喜欢。

所以啊，感觉还是很重要，虽然外国人占分比较多，但是我相信华人男生有他们没有的优点啊，这样就可以抢分了，况且他们有些也很帅啊。

拜托，是人都喜欢看帅哥美女。我看见外国美女走过我也是会直呼她们好美好美。欣赏和选男朋友不一样啊，选男朋友当然要选合眼缘，性格好，对自己好的啦。不要讲到我没看人内涵，多肤浅啊。

所以也不要讲到我好像种族歧视，我会跟马来人，印度人，非洲人和阿拉伯人做朋友叻。你不要问我会不会喜欢马来人啊、非洲人什么的，无可奉告。最重要是感觉。

烦恼

怎么身边的人都好多烦恼啊？最近的我生活的蛮开心点，虽然有时会有小小的不愉快，但是大致上都还不错，也许每一天都有期望吧？

我知道我不是没烦恼，只是我的烦恼还没开始，最近经历了好多事，学会了如何去坦然面对问题。一关一关的又过了，没什么事情解决不了，只是你自己做得好还是不好。

只是今天晚上就有三个人跟我诉苦，其实不用觉得不好意思啦，因为我现在还算是清闲，我绝对有充裕的时间洗耳恭听。朋友嘛，听下你们的苦水，开导下是应该的。我觉得你们信任我，找我诉苦也是我的荣幸啊。

希望朋友们都可以征服困难,顺顺利利吧。他们不开心，我也不开心。我自己也要加油，不要遇到小小问题就抱怨，应该学着去解决，去面对。所以，大家一起加油吧！我也希望自己可以更努力一点，这样任何事情也会得心应手。

最近还真的没什么烦人的事，多么庆幸啊〜好希望大学生活也可以顺顺利利的。目前为止，有两件事要完成，是什么？不跟你讲，等我完成了才讲。

唉，生日要到了，可惜朋友们都忙着考试，大学的事情，要延迟庆祝了，不知道要推迟几久呢？

不管怎样，虽然有多期望惊喜也好，但是总之要开开心心过，因为我觉得这是我最没烦恼的18岁生日，多么难的，所以要开开心心，幸幸福福的^_^

预先说一声：18岁生日快乐喔〜

Sad

Himo came to find me today. He said he fly back to his country tomorrow so he wanted to take photo. We took together but the photo is in his friend's phone.

I wish him good luck and all the best for everything. We hug together. The feeling was just sad and upset.

菜鸟成精记

唉，还没考车，就被父母日催夜催

考了车牌，被父母嫌说自己是菜鸟

菜鸟在进步时，被父母说驾车差劲

菜鸟成仙鸟时，父母说我驾车粗鲁

你说你说，你到底要我怎么样？

我驾慢慢的时候，你就说新手驾车没办法

我驾快快的时候，你就说新手驾那么快干嘛

很多次驾车的时候，不是因为自己的过失而吓着，而是被你们大惊小叫吓得魂飞魄散

承诺=白话

那个承诺，不要再放在心上。

如果他记得，如果他真的有意思，他会主动说

而不是一次有一次说白话，一次又一次给自己希望后再粉碎

我知道到最后我还是会原谅他，谁叫我曾经喜欢过他？

得来不易的东西我们永远都觉得它是美好的，无论怎样我们都会选择原谅和抓紧

轻易得到的东西我们都觉得理所当然，永远不会花心思抓紧身边的幸福，因为我们都觉得他们是善良的，不会离自己而去

任何事情都是有极端两面，任何事情要拿捏和明白事情的尺度，要不然到最后还是失去而已

我很生气他，恨他永远不知道自己给的承诺，带来给别人希望

恨他不履行自己的承诺，却三番四次有意无意说好听的话，让别人重燃希望

他的承诺，到底还记不记得，还是从来没放在心上

Never come back

When I read back the old record of our conversation. I found they were so disgusting and weird. I'm wonder why I tried to answer your non-sense question? Was I going too crazy? Silly me.

I hope we're no intersection anymore. Everything come to an end, a perfect one. Don't dare to come along and make me confuse, you're not the one. Look how great all the things are going well, it should be like this from the started, if you didn't come along. This is the last post about you, I hope so. You have ruined my posts so much, with those angry words.

Remember don't come back for me, who do you think you're?

Birthday Celebration 的第一天

今天好累啊，但是我很开心哦^_^

下下个星期一（3／6）就是本公主的生日啦,请容许我自恋一下（不过讲起自恋，我还是输了某人一大截）

今天七早八早就爬起床，是八点耶！你也许觉得没什么大不了，但是平时的我是早上七、八点睡觉-_-#

由于我十点半约了人打球，一点半约了另一班朋友庆祝生日，所以有点赶的说，七早八早就准备好东西（准备那些洗脸膏毛巾啊之类的，因为一打完球就要赶一点半的约会）

十点半准时出门，去载一个Xian Tjoe（他一直跟别人说我驾宝马，都老宝马了，卖出去都不值几个钱=_=）一路上他为我指路，因为我不知道那个球场在哪里，我还担心回不了家，事实上是如此，但还好我带了GPSˊ_>ˋ

无奈啊，我打羽球前从不热身，他竟然抢逼我热身，还要绕场跑-_-#不过算了吧，挺好玩的。我们早到球场，其他人都还没到，所以我们先开球咯。不知道为什么，我一边打球一边狂笑，害我肚子最后都累得快抽筋了，他说开心就好开心就好。对啊，希望每天都能笑得如此疯癫Y(^_^)Y

朋友们陆陆续续来了，我跟慧就聊心事，打打羽球，拍拍自恋照（她也是其中一个自恋的人）照片无法提供啦，都不明白为什么拿别人手机拍照，男性朋友回家看到电话里的倩影都感觉无奈吧

在这里要谢谢慧的香港手信，一个很可爱的香水和几包公仔面^_^大约一点我便离开了，很可惜不能跟他们喝茶(~_~;)回家的时候多靠我有带GPS，要不然不懂飞去哪个高架天桥了

过后到康乐去接我两个朋友，佩佩和俐烩。不懂他们坐我的车的时候有没有战战兢兢？我是一个路痴，有时头脑空白不知道要走哪条路，所以稍微带了他们游花园。我一个菜鸟在加速的时候，她们诺有所思的说：＂嗯，蛮不错嘛，很稳啊〜!＂还好啦，走过的路线会稍微比较熟一点，所以才驾快一点。

到了的时候打给一个三八婆，静雯。她竟然＂点＂我说她放我飞机，理由是她男友觉得自己样衰不要出来陪她搭车，我便开speaker让大伙臭骂她。讲了那么久以后，原来她在骗我=_=

我再也不会相信她的甜言蜜语还有扮可怜的模样。她还让我担心说她一个人搭车，其实有三个人陪着她（莫非大马停电了，她朋友分身出来）其实我们大多数时间分开走，她要买衣买鞋，然后男朋友陪伴在侧，我们不可能直接无视他男朋友的嘛。可怜的小跟班男友。

两位朋友请我吃Nando's,真的很谢谢你们，不便宜的说。ˊ_>ˋ两位很给面子的说我生日是皇，我要吃什么，我要去哪里都没给过意见，任我自由发挥。很谢谢你们一直听我说话，陪我吃东西，还要走东走西（虽然你们对购物一点兴趣也没有）还有就是你们不喜欢拍照，也配合我需求拍照，太感动了（≧∇≦）还有车上那一小段不像样的生日歌，我很开心。^o^

希望以后的生日都有你们帮我庆祝，thank you.

Why

Heart beat fast and I don't know why. Is that I miss him when he's gone? OMG, that's crazy. Better its not the reason.

New level

Today is started another level. Our new teacher called Sam. He's good guy, but he's also a boring teacher. I have forgot how many times I was yawning today. But not only me, 2 and 3 of us. I don't know how am I going to complete this level with him. I just couldn't imagine.

We have new students, but many of them absent. Maybe they already knew that first day is always a boring lesson. But if let me choose, I still choose to present cause I want to meet new friends and new grammar. I think it is important. I have nothing to do at home so why don't I go to class.

One of the student is a doctor, yea, he's a bit elder, but he's incredible, a doctor in our class. Maybe you wonder why a doctor need to study English at British Council. I wonder too but I didn't ask. I talked to him a lot, He's a bit shy. He wouldn't find partner, so I just walked to him. He's a nice guy.

I feel so speechless, when teacher asked what's is the weakness of us in English, whole class answer (not include me) writing and vocabulary. And all of them find the easiest thing to learn in English is SPEAKING. OMG, the weakness of mine. I want to cry, they all speak so well, only me...

Another thing I would like to ask your opinion, should I hang out with Arabians? They asked me but I haven't say yes. I feel a little bit weird, I found difficult to communicate with them sometimes, I can't imagine if I hang out with them, can I just shut my mouth up or they just shut their mouth up? I think better Sony hang out with them.

Before I left, Ali ( one of the Arabian ) stopped me and asked:" what's your planning for these holidays?" "
Hmm, I'm not going anyway, so how about you?" " I'm going to Langkawi, I believe there is a beautiful place, don't you think so?" " hmm, but for me, I much prefer Pulau Rendang." "Oh, we should hang out like have a movie, I did it before with the classmates." Another Arabian came around and asked:" oh, Valance you want watch movie? I go to watch Fast and Furious 6 with my friends today." " today?! I can't go seriously." " no, I mean if you guys want to watch I just don't go to watch today." " hmm, maybe just decide after holiday, okay? Bye. See you soon." I run away.

Haiz, should I go with them? Sounds very weird. Maybe they will forget about it. Just let it go, don't think that much. Himo have added me yesterday in FB and another Arabians come to add me also, when I saw their profile picture, I can't stop laughing. One of them seat like a boss. And another one put a very weird name. At first I was wonder who is this guy? He also don't put profile picture. I wonder I have met a guy come from Canada? Then he send me a message " hi valance, Ahmed here." " oh, why don't you put your name?" " I found this more funny, it mean crazy boy in Arab" "oh, I see." Lol, how funny, I just can't stop laughing.

The man was absent today. He asked me how was the class through WeChat. I said everything was going alright. After that he dare to ask a very funny question" did you miss me?" Oh how brave he can be? I think I should be brave too. " No, I didn't miss you at all, never!" "If you miss me I will go to the class" " Then you paid but you don't need to come" He kept asking me did I miss him or not, how disgusting? I think he wouldn't go to class already cause he dare to ask those questions means he's not gonna to see me again, so he brave to do all these. Maybe not bad also? Just forget about it.

Lalala, I have 5 holidays! I'm started to celebrate my coming birthday. Excited! :)

First Time again

Aww, the first time drove to KL alone. I felt a bit scary cause I failed to turn right into the parking place. I started get nervous and then I kept walk straight till I saw a primary school, I made a U-turn. OMG, I need to drive back alone later. I well-know the way I come but I'm not sure the way I travel back, it's two different ways. I only go thought twice.

The first thing I did is I called to my mom and told her everything was alright, only has one little incident happened. She's worry how I get back to home as I told her I'm feeling strange for the way back home. Everything has the first time, go go go!

Well, today started intermediate 2, I hope got new students. But I hope new students don't too pretty, because whole class is boys, except 1 or 2. You know what's gonna happened.

Enjoy my tea time!

Drop here, bye :) good luck >.^

Nice to meet you Himo

Sometimes, the relationship between one person and another person, not just a friend. We can called them as best friends, buddies, and brothers/sisters.

Whatever, when someone is leaving, he is started disappear from your life, the feeling is not good. But we still wish them all the best and hope we're still keep in touch.

Hey, I just meet you and it was crazy. But here's my FB account, so add me maybe. ( he already added, haha)

All the best for you Himo, you're incredible, lovely and gentle. Good luck and work hard on your studies. Best wish from me. Nice to meet you too, even it's just 2 weeks we spent together, but still felt good with you. Thank you for everything.

Thank you teacher

This post would about HIM again, please, is the one I hate, don't think I would write the one I like even today is 520.

I don't wish to talk about him, but I need way to release tension all come from him. My friends said maybe this is the way he makes me to remember him. Yeah it's truth, but I could only remember how much I hate him.

I would write how he made me hate him more today. I painted my nails yesterday. One Arabian felt interest and wanted me show him. The Arabian hold my hand and looked closely (to my nails) After he finished, the man want hold my hand, I just escaped very fast, I don't know why. I can let Arabian touch my hand but I can't let the man touch me, even one finger also. I think it's because I already hate him.

At the recess time, teacher wanted him to stay and requested us to go out cause she wanted to talk about him. Before I left, I heard a little bit what teacher have said, it was about he had made a complaint, he was not happy with the teaching of the teacher something like that, I'm not sure.

After recess I asked him and he's too narcissism, he told me teacher fall in love to him, want get married with him. I think it's the biggest joke I ever heard! I just want to share with someone and his hand came and covered my mouth, said it was the secret between he and me. HOW'S FUNNY?! He crazy or what? He think he is funny? I'm wonder his brain need send to hospital to service? Better book an appointment!

When we were playing game, he touched my shoulder with his stupid finger, I just turned and saw Arabian told him not to, if not I think I would slap him, maybe, seriously, depends. I sat with him within 1 hour cause teacher divided the group, lucky :)

Okay, end the topic about him. Before I left, I asked teacher can I access to intermediate 2 and get my certificate, teacher said :" definitely, why you asked this? You're brilliant, you done a really good job, you're in the right level. You're good student, I'm not worry about you, but others. Just don't worry, I will see you on Wednesday!" "Aww, thank you teacher!"

It's happy to hear this from teacher, but I know what's my problem, I have big problem on communicate, I know I'm not that bad on writing and reading, just have some grammar problem. Hope I can speak fluent English after I finished all the levels. God bless me!

发呆

最近我爱上静静发呆，仿佛在这繁忙的日子里，我可以喘一口气

发呆的时候，仿佛烦恼它迷失了，我觉得这感觉挺好的

发呆的时候，我喜欢听很伤感的情歌

在这样的空间里，我有很多感触

＂原来你爱了这么久的人，他是不爱你的＂
"虽然知道分手的理由有多么的残忍，但是都还是想知道＂
＂当你知道分手的理由，你的心如刀割般痛苦，就算你又哭又呐喊，你觉得你的痛却还深深烙在你心里＂
＂为什么要分手？一开始就不应该相爱＂
＂爱情本来都是单纯的，但是我们还有人生，人生是要面对现实＂
＂你想要蒙在鼓里的理由，还是口延残喘的真相？＂
＂你知道什么是爱情？爱情是不可以随便开始，任意结束＂
＂失恋听情歌，都感觉是讽刺，也发现原来眼泪可以流了一夜又一夜＂

YOU, please stop to be annoying like Phantom

Today is my lucky day I think. The man didn't sat beside me. I was so happy when the teacher called him to sit in front because he lated to class. When he came and sat beside me, I could smell the smoke on him. I just wanted to say OMG, I hate it so much! When he refused to sit in front, I was nervous, seriously.

Of course, teacher advised him to sit in front, he had no way to say no. There was only 1 problem - I sit with 2 Arabian, these two guys can speak fluent English but the pronunciation not enough clear and so the slang. When came to discuss section, I felt a bit shy.

I thought I found peace because the man was not here, but I was totally wrong. He sat that far from me, he still had his own way to annoy me, to get my attention. He kept calling my name and I acted like I didn't hear anything. The awkward moment was every student looked at me but there liked understand, they didn't dare to call me.

Okay never mind, the crazy thing he did is he keep throwing paper ball to me! Well, the boys have notice but they said nothing. At first I was so angry and I was starring at him but he just hided his face and laughing. The second...third...and few times more I acted like I didn't feel anything throw on me. I just like 'hmm, everything is fine, nothing happened.'

I knew he was keep starring at me but so what?! I must be act like I was so happy with two boys without him, much better without him. Who he think he is? He thinks he jokes are funny and he is the only one who has a good sense of humor? Every joke he made was just non-sense. I smiled doesn't show I enjoyed but I just tried to skimp.

It's enough, maybe he could feel what I have done to him - ignore and silent. I hope he really know what's going on and try to curb what he's doing especially the hands and the mouth. Never try to do something out of the line of limit. Does he understand? I think I wouldn't have this wonderful chance again, I think there's no way to make him sit separately with me except the teacher want to. The air was just so nice without him. I can have a really big deep breathe.

I can write better than speaking. The teachers marked my workbook and gave really good comments, they just said my basic not enough strong, that's what cause me always make mistake. Oh God I hope I can catch up and do better. God bless me and all the best!!! Good Luck!!!

Are you enough love her?

When you and I were in love, I used to believe you will be loyal forever.

When you and I were in love, I used to believe you and pay all of my love.

When you and I were in love, I think you wouldn't change forever.

When you and I were in love, I used to think you would only love me after we got married.

When you and I were in love, I used to think you remember all of your promises.

Why why why? I used to ask why.

Why you betrayed me? Why your love was change? Why you love other girl? Why you forgot the promises you have made to me?

Have you ask yourself how many promises you have made for your girlfriends? Have you ask yourself how many time you said you love your girls forever and ever? Have you ask yourself why you always break the promises?

I'm wondering? If you don't have confident, please never say that. Let't the actions speak the words, never lying.

You know how hurt when the love betrayed ourselves? The feeling is just so pain - sad, disappointment , exhaust and angry! The feeling is going to make someone go mad, go crazy. Who makes the girls become realistic? You have no reason to complain and to blame. You can never say you will be loyal forever. The girls have hurt so much, they learn from the lesson.

We are human. We are the same. Boys can betray girls, girls also can betray boys. Who make this happened? Men. If you never do that, the girls wouldn't change to be so realistic. There are no way to find any excuses. If you love, you can forgive. If you love enough, you can pardon. All are just about ARE YOU ENOUGH LOVE?

Mind your action

WTF, I woke up that early just want to finish my homework but my workbook was took by someone.

OMG, can't you just stop being annoying? I think I want to struggle you to death! The only reason why I click ACCEPT was just because I lost the workbook and I wanted to ask have you accidentally took my workbook. You're so annoying, it doesn't matter whether I want to put my photo or not, that's non of your business.

If you don't stop being annoying, I sure will change my seat. I don't want to dislike you, it's just exhausting, can't you just to leave me alone, it's so tired to hate someone. The feeling of me towards you nothing much more than friend, I have negative mood right now, I don't want transform myself to a hater and YOU're my enemy, for sure.

I just want to scream loudly, WOULDN'T YOU KNOW YOUR LIMIT? I mean I don't care what race you're but you're old, you love to smoke, and you over narcissism. No one would ask whether yourself handsome or cute or not. Please, you know yourself, why you want to get agreement for me? I just want say WTH?! Can someone help me answer your question, give the answer you want?

I just don't want hurt someone, no one, but you're pushing my patience to the limit. I just go crazy soon, so soon. I don't know when I would explode! Everything comes to me, you would be the first I want to shoot! Sorry and no sorry.

If you dare to brush your hand over mine, I sure slap you! SLAP YOU & STRUGGLE YOU to death.

Please, mind your every action. I would be watch up you. It just few days, just few more days. I just wonder why you feel interested in me? Don't you know the age gap? You look like womanizer. I have to stop talking about you, it just like ruined my blogpost with some negative and bad stuff. I have to calm myself. PEACE.

请拯救我

原来，一个自己不喜欢的人喜欢自己，真的不是一件值得开心的事。

原来，当你尝试跨过友情那条线时，我会开始_讨厌你。

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大家别以为我在炫耀还是什么，只是我真的很感叹，你看了以后说不定还会同情我。

唉，其实我也不美，也没什么特别吸引人的地方，有时还很糟糕！

可是好死不死，我是班里唯一的女生（另一个女生较常缺课）

起初一个男生（其实看起来他很＂老＂了，他不肯讲自己的岁数）坐在我10点钟方向（因为四张桌子拼起来，其实很近就对了）没关系啊，＂人生地不熟＂我还怕没人要跟我坐呢！第一天很愉快地和大家相处下来

第二天他还没到，就有另两个男生分别到了，他们分别坐在我11点和3点的位子，而我坐在六点钟方向，五点的位子被我的包包占用了。他来到的时候就有两个位子可选，一就是我6点位子的正隔壁，一就是10点方向。怎知他来的时候就坐在我隔壁，我那时就觉得还好啊，没什么大不了。

在课堂上他就一直讲他以为很好笑的笑话，可是我就很无奈的强颜欢笑。他每天都一直在逗我讲话，不懂由几时开始，他在抄写的时候，靠得很近，我就以为还好吧，他看不清楚，我就稍微靠边点坐，因为我不是很习惯。可是有几次都是这样，他的手会扫到我的手，大家不要以为好像小说情节发生的一样很浪漫，对我来说真是起了一身鸡皮疙瘩，他手上好有很多手毛，每次他扫过我都快哭出来了，唯有将一只手放在腿上。还有他身上的烟味，我可是不那么喜欢，一副很臭的戏院靠椅的味道！

有一次老师问到谁有男女朋友之类的，我没什么反应，他就伸过来拉我的手，要举起来。我真的觉得很不舒服，都快晕倒了。然后我们都用iPhone，他就介绍什么什么apps，我就OK咯。然后他就开WeChat，就跟我那电话号码，我不可能拒绝啊，要不然接下来该怎样相处下去？他要我立刻accept，我就只好说我的电话要有Wifi才可以其实我有cellular的。回家了以后我看到了Request，我都不想接受，所以目前为止还没接受。

也许他的行径太过Over，当老师要我们分组聊我们＂遇见的一个人得第一印象＂我就跟那难得来的女生一组，我们开始交谈咯。至于我聊的对象我选择保持沉默。当我说到＂handsome"另一个男生就起哄喊他然后讲了一大堆，其实他讲什么我没在听，我不想听，我觉得那很不舒服。不过事后那个男生说他开玩笑跟我道歉，要不然我真的会劈死他！不过现在我不是很想理他了，虽然不可能。唉，只好见步走步吧。

如果给我选，我宁愿与班上的任何男生一起，也不愿跟他，那是不可能再不可能！先别开种族不说，那是一种感觉！我现在真的很排斥！

现在才发觉原来这是一个让人那么懊恼的烦恼，天啊！来拯救我吧！你同情我了吗？

Mother Day handmade card/ board (own design )

Thank you for my best friends who started to think of my birthday. I don't realized since I have to prepare Father's Day and my dad's birthday. Thinking and preparing the cards and presents are really spending me a lot of time. I couldn't really think how many days and nights I have spent to prepared the Mother's Day' board. It's beautiful, the best art work I have ever done. Some of my friends asked how I made the board. if you want to know just leave a comment or PM me. I'm thinking of my future and I'm getting ready for everything. I started to learn everything to turn a better me. I hope everything will be alright, ALL THE BEST!

心神不定

今天到底怎么了？心神不定，心跳个不停，不会有什么不好的事情发生吧？

今天驾车频频出错，走路差点摔跤，唉。

今天他怎么早来了，我的心都还没定下来，不要跟我讲话，不要跟我讲话，我费事舌头打结了。

The feeling

Halo, I'm at home today! Sigh, finally... It sounds like I don't like study at British Council >~< No, there's not the reason. I mean I feel tired.

I only spent 3 hours in British Council but it actually take me whole day. Let's see, I wake up at 10:30 every morning, I have my lunch at 12pm and drive there I need 1-2 hours because of traffic jam. The class end at 5:30pm and I need another 2 hours to drive back home and have my lunch, it's nearly 8++pm. See, my time just flies away!

It's difficult for me to wake up at 10am because I usually wake up after 12pm. I know it's a bad habit.

Did I enjoy the lessons? I say yes, maybe. Why maybe? I'm still not sure, I mean I still can't learn something new, my speaking skill still do not improve cause they just speak simple English.

How about the new friends? Well, I found that I love talk to Arabian cause they're more talk active and friendly. I have two Chinese friends, but we did not talk a lot, we only talk when the activities need. I think they are shy. Luckily, I don't know when i started become not that shy, if not I'm difficult to communicate with other. There're 3 boys sit with me, so lucky. One is Malay, 1 is Arabian and 1 I don't know come from which country! This 3 guys talked a lot and always brave to ask and share opinions.

I found that I have many nickname since I joined this class. One day, teacher saw I got pink highlight in my hairs and teacher said:" Wao, so beautiful. The pink just like my clothes, so sharp and so nice." The boy sit next to me said:" Oh Yeah, WAO!" and the Arabian said:" your hair just so beautiful and so straight..blablabla" and then they started call me "WAO" I felt really speechless.

They also called me clever girl. They asked how about my SPM result. I told them and they said"Wao, good enough!" One of them asked:" what's subject you got B+?" I answered Eng and Che. They wonder why I got A for Physic but got B for chemistry, Chemistry is easier! I said I think I was crazy!

The third nickname I got is Bling Bling. This is super obvious because my clothes, my shoes, my bag and my phone case all are sticked by crystal.

The fourth is Only Girl. That's because we only have 2 girls in class and I'm one of the two. The Malay girl sometimes absent and I become the only one. I feel a bit awkward sometimes. I still survived now is because they're friendly and not mind join with me. :)

Overall the things go very well, I hope it always to. Stop here, bye.

A rally at Stadium Kelana Jaya (8/5)

5/5/2013
We just finished our election. The result came our and majority of Malaysians just did not satisfy with it.

8/5/2013
Anwar made a rally at Stadium Kelana Jaya today. This is the first day I can see Malaysians being so cooperation，determined and tough. I can't see Malay, Chinese and India, I only see Malaysians. Lets the pictures below speak the words and the cooperation of ethnic group! Ps: BN Government can never do this, do you really think of what you have done for people? You said what us want from you, you gave the best. Do you think seriously? Think before you speak, if you did a good job, our people wouldn't do this and it's not tsunami of Chinese but its TSUNAMI OF MALAYSIANS. We fight for it, are you ready?

From the pictures we can see how many people there? I guess more than 20 000 people? We can see even it was raining but people still stand there with their umbrella but who really cared? I heard the news, the stadium is totally full but the people who at LRT Station and the car on the road are not counted. They couldn't go in. You can see some people who cannot get into stadium they climbed and sat on top! see how powerful of Malaysians!

First day at British Counsil

Hey, just do a short update here. Well, today is my first day at British Counsil. Well, I know you gonna ask "How was it?"" Was it good?" "How about the teacher?" Well I gonna tell you this one by one, just let me start my post with an annoy and boring sentences but I have to, if not I'm not feeling well.

Today is a beautiful day. This is my first drive (you would say wtf how many times I have said that was my first drive?) to Kuala Lumpur. Okay, but it's Kuala Lumpur! Can you imagine the cars and traffic jam? I means it really need a bit driving skill, not a bit, I means more than that. The cars made me go mad but luckily I got mom accompany me. Fortunately, I drive there successfully. (Ofcoz, if not I'm no mood staying here and writing this long post)

Okay, just skip this non-sense I know you gonna beat me or kick me or whatever. Even there was traffic jam but I still arrived British Counsil earlier, it's enough time for me to buy my books which spent me RM80+. My class got 10 people I think (I didn't really count it) with 8 boys and 2 girls and I'm one of it. At first I thought there was no girl then I thought I must be kinda shy. The Malay girl came to class late for 20-30 mins I think. It's no used for me cause she and me sat separately. Lets talk about boys. There're 8 boys - 1 Malay, 2 Chinese, and 5 come from oversea like Arab and I can't really remember.

The class started at 2 o'clock in the afternoon. 1 Malay and 1 Arab sat with me, but it's okay. We talked a lot and shared our ideas, some crazy ideas.
We got to know each other and it's fun, not very fun but its okay. I'm so sorry that I can't really heard what Arabian said because of their slang ( is it spell correctly?) it's a bit hard for me. Oh yeah , forgot to introduce the teacher - Theresa, refer to the name you know she is a lady. She is from Ireland! You know one of my boy is from Ireland, suddenly I felt she is so friendly and beautiful ( go away la you ) but seriously she is beautiful!

The way we started our class - we wrote our introduction on a piece of paper. Ya, introduction, something like what's your name, hobby, favorite music or whatever you want to write just write it. After finished writing, we exchanged the paper with our partner and asked questions about each other just like "Why did you write this" "Why you..." something like that. After that we had chances to know every colleague or maybe you can say students. We practice writing, listening and reading skill too. We have 5mins for game too. It was the funniest part for game, we may cheated but teacher said she don't care, haha if not we were going crazy soon. The students and of course me would definitely answer the question if we know what the answer is. We just like fully participate in the class - there's also one of the rule.

First day everything is simple. I wouldn't found it super easy because we're just beginning. What we talk after from this would be harder and harder and no more How are you? What's your full name? Where are you from and why you absolutely hate bla bla bla something like that. If we started get to know each other well and we wouldn't say this simple language already and maybe we will talked deeply like politics, fashion and music.

However, it was a good start through. Hope it's another good day for tomorrow.

５月５，马来西亚选举，民主已死

5月5，换政府。

大选已经结束了，结果与预想一样，国政赢了。当然，国政怎么可能输？

虽然这次是十几年来民意最强，最团结的一次，可是国政有警察，有军人，由公务员，有他们自己党员的家人，除了还有他们本身自己的支持者以外，还有“外劳”。

这一次的大选，与往届很不同，有很多冲击国政的流言蜚语和中伤的谣言。在Facebook和Video上，我们只能看见民众和朋友对民联（反对党）的支持还有寥寥无几的人对国政依然忠心耿耿。

“国政为了赢，给外劳身份证和钱只为了让外劳来投票”
“验票来到尾声，有两带候补票送到，国政大翻身”
“票数重新点算，国政竟因多出几票而反败为胜”
“涂在手上的蓝墨一冲水便洗脱，疑国政舞弊”
”民联党一开始票数大大领先国阵，本来一个候选人来自民联党已经宣布赢了国阵一个候选人。但算票处突然停电。电流恢复时却发现有8箱投票箱在里面，就说诶还有8箱没算到！算出来时、那个300多票竟然给那个国阵候选人。明明新闻已经报告民联候选人胜出、但停电后、新闻再次报道说算错票然后就说国阵大大领先赢了。民联候选人不甘愿要求再次算票、但依然失败。”

 

 

这次马来西亚大选可谓轰轰烈烈，除了这次我们各大民族都团结投票以外，这些流言蜚语都飘洋过海，香港，新加坡和中国国家不等已在他们的报刊上刊登有关马来西亚的不干净选举。所谓：好事不出门，坏事传千里。






首相纳吉说：“那些流言蜚语都是反对党的虚构，完全不是事实。”

可是事出必有因，不可能一连串的中伤流言是空悬来风吧

 

以下三个都是朋友们的头照

黑色代表民主已死，马来西亚的天空是黑的

 

黄色是马来西亚想要有一个干净（Ｂｅｒｓｉｈ）的竞选

 

橙色——民联
黄色——净选盟
绿色——绿色干净委员会

 

民联主席－安华已公开不承认选举出来的结果，他誓要首相纳吉为舞弊负上责任

 

 

其实无论到最后马来西亚会演变成怎样，虽然国政是赢得了这次的选举，可是赢的不怎么风光。马来西亚人民已经觉醒，小小的火苗已经点燃，相信未来这些小小火苗会团结起来成为大大的烈火。

 

 

British Counsil

It's another lazy day for me. I still can't imagine that I would start my course this Wednesday. How it would be? I hope I can meet many international friends and I really could learn something from British Counsil. It's the time to be more independent and I have no excuse to run away from the decision I should make like "I'm not understand" or " I'm not dare to ask because of my broken English".

How about my college life? When I wanted to choose Help University for my Edexcel A-Level, I asked my friend how is the university but she told me not that good as what I'm expected. Well, I only got few choices which offer Edexcel A-Level. I found that UCSI and Methodist like have no offer Edexcel A-Level anymore. I thought of UCSI before as the location of it really the best for me which near my house. Help University a bit far away from me, I have to think of so many issue. I feel really dilemma when come to this topic, sigh.

Whatever, I have a good start which is I started go to British Counsil, at least I have started something new which good for my future. Hope everything would be okay and fine.

Sorry babies

Hey, few days do not update, have you babies feel boring? I'm sorry, I'm just like - very busy and I don't know why cause it seems like I have done nothing. There're kinda a lot of things I would like to share. I classify them as HAPPY MEMORIES but sigh, I have to say that there were one bad thing has happened last week, maybe there's not the worst decision they both have made but it was an unhappy event.

I wish I can write a proper blog post and with some amazing photos ( but I was not take many photos ) Yes, I'm not gonna to tell you what had happened in this post but next few post. So, see you. In gonna bath now. Bye sweethearts. :) <3