I see hope

I got my result today. The happy thing is result is getting better, and I finally see A's. The bad thing is some of them remain sucks especially Biology, so thinking to drop it. I cant say Im happy with it as I haven't compare result to the others, the one I want to know the most. And for those Koreans, not surprising, they got pretty good results, their replies always are - I got straight A's.

One of my friend got bad result, you know sometimes we just better keep our mouth shut as when you're upset you just dont want to talk, even though some are encourage words, you will just feel tired to respond or smile back.

I feel so betrayed that is my result being told by my friend to someone, although she is one of my close friend too, but I hope I am the one who telling if I want them to know.

Another thing is I hate someone being so unfaithful. She always say:" Its so hard, I dont know how to do." or " No la I cant get good result" and end up she always end up with a "not-bad" result. And the point is when she saiy something like that, she doesnt show her sad or worry expressions, being so faked, uh huh? Its not about jealousy, its just - can you do not being so fake? I rather you show off but not acting fake.

I will start work harder and harder, wish my hard works paid off and worth.

So sorry

Sorry keeps delaying our hang out session my friends. I dont know why these days I rather stay at home ( although I am not as I helping my parents with lots of stuffs ) I feel pretty guilty as I promised we will meet after I finished my exam.

And another reason is I has gained lots of weight. Many friends want to hang out with me because they want cafe-hopping with me. I cant resist good food especially desserts which are the worst one - main reason I gain lot of weights.

Secondly, I have no money. No class means no pocket money, usually like that. I dont dare to take from my dad also as he has paid a lot for the trips already and I'm going to Singapore next week ( this makes me think of should I go to Bangkok or not as my mom wants to go badly )

Third is these days I become quite anti-social. I guess is because being trained by A Level stressful life. I cant hang out a lot. And its stressful enough makes me rather stay at home and be a couch potato. Sigh.

I feel damn sorry to those friends who we only meet once or twice a year, sigh. This is why friendship faded right? Different pathway makes us difficult to meet as well.

Starting tomorrow to next week my days are packed with stuffs and hang out session already and on 11th Im going to Singapore, and when I back from Singapore sorry I have to force myself focus on study.

Life always dont go as what you expected baby.

I miss Milo* lol