Sucked!

Sorry for only shared all the things about 1D (cause LOVE them too much and can't stop myself to look and talk about them sometimes.)
Have I made you guys boring? ( 1 of my friend said yes )
Even I think alsolutely not but actually yes.
Well, start my boring post again with title " Result suck!"
Yeah, my exam result came out and can check in the Internet.
I thought is quite okay but actually not.
Too much awesome pupils in my school and cause me really think that my result is worst.
I got 69/ 800+ in whole F5.
Yes, it dropped even my grade actually raise from 3.7 to 3.3.
I HAVEN'T TELL MY PARENTS CAUSE I SCARED. (Just let them know when they take my result)
Feel very stress and sweat when compared to those gorgeous friends. (Some of them is abnormal, you get what I tried to mean?)
I know I am lazy  (not lazy actually just not enough hardworking, it sounds better)
I know I will be better if I am hardworking. "IF"!
I told myself many times to be more hardworking and I finally give up. (I never try to do that ==ll, it's hard to me to stay at home for study but not hang out and enjoy my life.)
Yeah, I know what I said all is just non-sense and excuses. (Just let me pls, if not what to do?).
My friends just remind me the SPM IS AROUND THE CORNER (so what I said in my bottom of my heart, I just lazy)
I always like to burn midnight oil what, just let it go, let me regret, let me accept reality. (hmm...so negative thinking)