OMG another super tiring day. I went to Kuala Selangor where is pretty far with family today to eat seafood. It took me whole day and only reached home at 9pm. These days only realised that outings can make me feel super tired. I think tomorrow will be going out with mommy, she's been complaining that I spend not enough time to accompany her. God I just have my holidays.
I think I should update more about my past two months with my college friends cause they've been waiting for so long and keep asking me. Damn but don't feel like want to update today. I can write part of it but also can't manage to finish the post by today I think. If it's about food post should be okay for me cause probably the post is only pictures of food.
Watching my to-do list, finished part of it, but still feel like the progress is so slow but actually I just have my holidays since 5 days ago. Spending 3 days for college friends are a lot already, but Hayley asking me whether I'm free on Tuesday, she wants prom shopping. I need it too but I'm just worry about my mom, she should be thinking "aiyaya hanging out with friends also don't want accompany me" She's a bit unhappy that Wednesday I will be bringing friends to Pasar Malam instead of go with her. Sigh, sometimes I really cant manage my outings.
Started reading my novel The Book Thief. At first I wanted to read the English version but it's just too deep for me, even I'm reading Chinese Version now also takes some times to let me really understand it. Thinking if I manage to finish Chinese and English version of same novel, is it still consider I finished reading 2 novels? Then I complete one of my to-do list. ( hahaha trying to cheat )
The friends I want to hang out with (who mostly didn't meet for so long) I have already met them, except SeeYing. Aizz she also has classes everyday. If next week can't manage to meet her then I think I just have to cancel it or just postpone after my Penang trip ( which I don't want to ) Haven't planned any single thing about Penang, I think I should start it right now, especially have to consider whether take flight or bus.
Why I'm making myself so busy, do I feel happy and satisfied, sometimes I thinking I'm just like try to finish my to-do list, I'm not really enjoy what I'm doing. I'm asking myself whether I feel happy or not but I can't answer, I'm just too tired. I need friends to tell me, especially college friends really good at identify it nowadays. I think I have something, inside my heart, disturbing me. I think I know what, but me myself want to forget about it, right now. But still they're inside my heart, affecting me. I can't solve it, cause I can't control it. Sometimes I hate things that take over my emotion, they're just annoying, aren't they?
I should make some changes, but I'm just tired and lazy, finding excuses, that's why there're always reason why people cannot success. Stoping myself being negative minded as me myself also dislike and tired of people with negative influence. ( uhh huh trying say something beautiful again but not really doing anything, whatever )
Opps only realised I have wrote so long, should stop here and make the changes that in my mind. ( hope I won't daydreaming and wondering should I do it again after this ) I try update food post by today but I'm not sure will my mom wants me to do something for her so let's see la. Goodbye and Goodnight my friends.
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