Complaint

Hi, I am here, I cant write 'again', how sad is that, doesnt it? I am not an active blogger anymore. Why I am here? I don't know. I just feel like typing. And I quite hate to see the old post over and over again when I open my website. I am so depress, don't know what to do, don't know what to choose, don't know what decision should or shouldn't I make. I always hate regret after I make my choices. I am such a dilemma person.

Ive been busy quite awhile. And I spend a lot of time on thinking, seriously I am thinking not daydreaming. I don't get anything or sign or decision after Ive been thinking for so long time. I just keep questioning myself, all over and over again, about the same thing.

Its like Ive been stuck for so long, after I chose A Level as my pre-U. I don't know, I don't have confident, I don't trust myself, I keep comfort myself that although I am not the really good one but I am a better person. A Level has just kept destroy every bit of my self-confident. I don't know am I really not smart enough for it or am I not work hard enough for it. If its the second option, is this the life I want? People say you cant get what you want if you are not work hard enough. But my question is if I work hard enough, I get the good result and choosing something that I think I should choose because of the result, is that what I really want? You can see Ive made so much effort on that, I couldn't imagine if I am going to choose more challenging course like medicine, how much hard work should I put to afford this more challenging course?

You know, I am so blur, I just keep complain and blame myself. Well, I have stuffs to do again, you know times always not enough for me, an A Level student. 

Birthday Celebration ( Part 7 ) & Ming Li Birthday Celebration

Sorry have been keeping you waiting, you know the reason right but I am still so sorry.

Well well well...let's start our throwback!

Date: 19th June 2014
Venue: Leisure Mall ( again, lol )
Bestie: Ming Li ( piggy butt )

I know you wished to celebrate with me earlier but you just didn't want to rush, I think you made a right choice! I was so stress while having my exam, so luckily you booked me after my exam, I was so relieve and happy. As usual, the nearest and convenient place to go - Leisure Mall. I think although we hate going to Leisure Mall but cant deny that it is a place that full of memories of our secondary school life, and it proves our friendship going on and on.

Okay I am still glad that we can talk a lot every time we meet, we still know how's each other going on without chatting, thats the amazing part right? I like this relationship. I appreciate you concern me via your own way, read every my single tweet and post detail-ly. You're the best follower.

Well while I am typing this post, I stopped and went to read your letter for me in your blog. I remember I have some feedback for that letter and I reminded myself that I need to write it in this post.

"At times I used to compare my lifestyle with yours and wonder why you were so lucky while I was just so ordinary" 

My comment : Do not compare yourself with me, you're just the way you are! You're lucky as well as you're smart, you're not just smart but SO SMART. I have a smart friend who got her GPA 4.0! I have a smart friend who can speak fluent English! I have a friend who slimmer and taller than me! Well you think who should the one to envy? 

"... also have really good fashion sense. You can also keep your skin so nice and clean, know how to dress well..."

My comment: You know what? The pictures you put is totally non-related to the sentence, when I saw that picture I was like... covered my eyes. Your friends must think of your sense has something wrong. They might just think and imagine:" How this fellow gonna dress fashionably and her skin is nice meh?" 

" I guess I can rather confidently say that in my circle of friends, you actually come in as my 3rd bestie after Meow and CK (sorry no offense, hope you understand!)"

My comment: I am totally understand and acceptable! I am so proud of to be your no 3! I hope it will never change! 

Well both of us actually keep repeating the same old stories over and over again, so people say: we are going to miss our secondary school life! Well thats true, and thats our wonderful teenage life that memorable and unforgettable as well, part of best time in our life. You know, sometimes I just don't know what to write in the letter, cause every time it would turns out repetitive, and I'm bored of it, hahaha to be frank. But I will keep up the traditional.  

Date: 8 Aug 2014
Venue: KL night tour
Bestie: Piggy Ming Li

The shortest duration we met again. It was just one and half months. It was my holidays again, woohoo so cheerful. I remember that day you were so excited and talkative, how long we'd jam in the road, how long you talked, luckily I am a pro-driver, can drive while talking. Either you feel thankful, I feel so thankful too as I really seldom enjoy night walk in KL. The only imperfection was that day was so crowded, I couldn't really walk steadily and enjoyed the wind blew into my face and you whispered beside me.

We enjoyed our dinner at Tous Les Jous, a place very romantic and England retro-style like Harry Potter. The only bad thing was we should enjoy our dessert there as well but both of us were so full and actually the desserts that day didn't look so attractive. After that you enjoyed your Starbucks which only can have once in a blue moon and I had nothing, my 3D art coffee shop was closed, so sad, tears streaming down my face.

I hope you like my present, which I think it suits you because 虽然你给人的感觉是大咧咧，可是在感情上你是丰富而又细腻的, and days before I saw you posted picture of clovers, so doesnt it a right present for you. And a box of chocolate, I hope that cheer you up or lighten your day as well!

I hope we will see each other pretty soon, and I hope our friendship can last forever and stay as close as we wish.

To be continued - Birthday Celebration ( Part 7 &8 )

Nah I'm here again, same reason, when I need to start doing my homework, I always have the feeling to update my blog. Nowadays, blogging isn't my favourite thing to do anymore, I do not know why. Maybe I am just not enough time for that, you know, I prefer spending time on other stuffs to relax myself when I have that bit of time.

If follow the sequence, this post should be about my birthday celebration again, ya haven't come to an end. I think I just update pictures? I dont know when I would able to find the passion of writing blog again. Many things have changed, not only this. I don't want talk about this anymore, this only would depress me.

So let's see.

Birthday Celebration ( Part 7 )

Date: 18 June 2014
Venue: Cheras Sentral
Bestie: Khai Yuet

I met her when we were both Form 3 and we were spending a year together. She is my only swimming partner. I love spending time swimming with her and after that we will both sit in the playground, stare at the sky and talk a lot. Time flies. I could remember back to few years ago my parents always sent she and I to the swimming pool and I got my license now, I fetch her every time we going to somewhere. We seldom meet after graduated, only few times per year. I wish I could see her more often, she is such a lovely and understanding girl.

Birthday Celebration ( Part 8 )

Date: 19th June 2014 ( Part 1 )

Venue: My house -> TeaBoBo 

Friends: Peipei, Lei Hui & Lai Kuan

I felt so bad that they celebrate my birthday every year but every time when come to their birthday, the plan always failed. Although we don't have lot to talk, but they are just such nice friends that... yea they are just kind and nice, they make you feel relax, like nothing to scare of and worry of. 

After met with them, I have another date with my piggy MingLi. I got to spend more time on writing her one as she is the special one too. See ya next post!