Hi, I am here, I cant write 'again', how sad is that, doesnt it? I am not an active blogger anymore. Why I am here? I don't know. I just feel like typing. And I quite hate to see the old post over and over again when I open my website. I am so depress, don't know what to do, don't know what to choose, don't know what decision should or shouldn't I make. I always hate regret after I make my choices. I am such a dilemma person.
Ive been busy quite awhile. And I spend a lot of time on thinking, seriously I am thinking not daydreaming. I don't get anything or sign or decision after Ive been thinking for so long time. I just keep questioning myself, all over and over again, about the same thing.
Its like Ive been stuck for so long, after I chose A Level as my pre-U. I don't know, I don't have confident, I don't trust myself, I keep comfort myself that although I am not the really good one but I am a better person. A Level has just kept destroy every bit of my self-confident. I don't know am I really not smart enough for it or am I not work hard enough for it. If its the second option, is this the life I want? People say you cant get what you want if you are not work hard enough. But my question is if I work hard enough, I get the good result and choosing something that I think I should choose because of the result, is that what I really want? You can see Ive made so much effort on that, I couldn't imagine if I am going to choose more challenging course like medicine, how much hard work should I put to afford this more challenging course?
You know, I am so blur, I just keep complain and blame myself. Well, I have stuffs to do again, you know times always not enough for me, an A Level student.
Ive been busy quite awhile. And I spend a lot of time on thinking, seriously I am thinking not daydreaming. I don't get anything or sign or decision after Ive been thinking for so long time. I just keep questioning myself, all over and over again, about the same thing.
Its like Ive been stuck for so long, after I chose A Level as my pre-U. I don't know, I don't have confident, I don't trust myself, I keep comfort myself that although I am not the really good one but I am a better person. A Level has just kept destroy every bit of my self-confident. I don't know am I really not smart enough for it or am I not work hard enough for it. If its the second option, is this the life I want? People say you cant get what you want if you are not work hard enough. But my question is if I work hard enough, I get the good result and choosing something that I think I should choose because of the result, is that what I really want? You can see Ive made so much effort on that, I couldn't imagine if I am going to choose more challenging course like medicine, how much hard work should I put to afford this more challenging course?
You know, I am so blur, I just keep complain and blame myself. Well, I have stuffs to do again, you know times always not enough for me, an A Level student.
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