enjoy being alone

Since I am waiting for the drama to load, and I am tired of doing math, so I am here, teehee. My parents are at outstation, my brothers are staying over at their friends' houses, and I am not invite anyone come to stay over at my house. At first I did, but many issues there need to consider and quite troublesome, and end up Ive changed my mind - I want to experience hows life of being alone, maybe I will be study oversea years later, so I should experience how things work. It might help a little I guess, at least a bit.

So far I quite enjoy the moment while I am at home, alone, so quite and peace. I am getting greedy, wanted more time being alone but I cant, my parents will be back soon. I dont know why, I am over with always want hang out with friends, maybe like what Ive said before - everything thing has a transition period, and mine for that is over. These days I seem want to be at home, do not have any intention want to date with friends, weird right? A sociable girl anti-socialing.

My friends said Ive changed compare to years ago. They said nowadays, I seem not that active anymore, I am still a crazy while we talk, I mean in terms of socialising. They said I would like to stay in comfort zone, not going to explore more stuffs, meet new friends, I am just quiet.

Herrr do not know what else to say, my life nowadays just repeating, sometimes i feel i am so sick with it. I have lots of decision need to make, every decision I need to make just feel like scratching my hair. SIGH.

Okay la bye.

just some non-sense update

HiHi, I am here again, with a good mood, luckily. I didn't expect that time flies for this week, so fast come to an end and I'm like I'VE DONE NOTHING MUCH REALLY. I didn't even notice how I spend most of my times this week.

Hey how ya guys doing? I feel like I really want to ask this questions to all of my old friends, it seems like we lost contact quite awhile, and I am getting used with it ( I am just doing the same thing - the things they always do, just tired of being the one I start the conservation first, the one and maybe only one realised how long we've not contacted each other and the one who started to find them first ) I cant blame them, cause when I realised they have became the part of "not really important' in my life, I hardly remember their exists, except some moments like now, the times I actually stop myself and throwback everything. And actually, this is the way how I start my paragraph. You know, I dont want talk about this, no more, I dont really care now.

I am here for what, let me think, I just feel like what to write some shit here, so sorry I am not going to share bit things about the thing you guys feel interest and curious, I just enjoy sharing when friends ask personally.

Id made a big choice, I let a guy friend follow me, it stops me tweet so much, I shouldn't blocked that guy who followed me few weeks ago. Whatever, I get in touch with things lesser, I can more concentrate on studies, ignore non-sense, focus on something/someone more important. This is my aim for now, it takes time, but I believe it doesnt take really long, cause its working.

Okay, stop here. See ya.

Little things about my dad

Hey, I'm here again ( Don't I update quite often again nowadays, well compare to those inactive period ) I guess I know why? Don't worry I am in quite a good mood now. Imma doing some revision, I'm just in too good mood till I want to blog, I will make sure myself back to study later, today is going to be a long night. Oh ya why I blog quite often nowadays? Because I don't feel like tweeting, and I feel safe to express myself here ( cause I guess no one read my blog ) I feel so peace.

What makes me feel so good? Its just because today is weekend, and I had slept whole day ( to recharge myself, cause I only sleep few hours per day in weekdays ) And I feel so satisfied now. Between I keep make myself to appreciate and be thankful on every little thing. Like thank God I spend much time today with my dad, nowadays I can feel how much dad loves me. He made breakfast for me today ( well my mom is at oversea right now, these days my dad cooks breakfast and dinner for me, he just get so addicted, maybe is because I finish all the food he cooked ) Today morning was western breakfast, a simple one. When my mom we-chatted my dad while we were having breakfast, and asked where was I, my dad kind of showing off, told my mom he was having breakfast with me. Seriously, like usually, if my parents have each other to accompany, I will just go to library to study, cause I consider sleep quite a lot if I stay at home ( like today ), so my dad always feel quite happy able to grab meals with me. And in the evening, he bought me a roti pisang ( he knows I always craving about roti pisang, although I just had it yesterday with my friends outside ) And at night actually I dont feel like eating but I can feel my dad just wanted to go somewhere to have a good dinner, so I also just accompany him la ( and usually i will do that while my mom isn't here, cause daddy so kesian, having dinner alone, my two brothers just always not at home or else want daddy dabao, I'm such a good girl right ) Finally we decided to go to Chereas Sentral to see what we want to eat, and after that just spent time shopping with him ( we didn't buy anything though )

Although sometimes I think i hate wasting time to do something I dont like ( because time becomes so precious for me after i taking a level, it just ruins everything doesnt it ) but started I feel i should feel thankful and appreciates every chance that i able to spend with family. nowadays my dad feels his legs pain and refused to see doctor ( such a stubborn and old-fashioned man ) I can see my dad older and older, i dont know how much time i could spend with him, i dont know maybe myself will study oversea, i just dont know, so i should grab any chance that i could spend time with him. i hope he always in the pink of health.

wao typed a lot ady, should stop here la, back to study :)

Surprisingly I'm back again

I am really not in the right mood now. Luckily Alex Turner's music album - Submarine has calmed me a little bit. I cant do any revision right now, kind of in pissed off mood, sigh. I don't feel like want to tweet, don't feel like want to post picture in insta cause I like the last pic stay at that place in my profile. I feel glad that I'm getting lesser to tweet nowadays ( but i still tweet non-sense la ) at least I didn't boom my insta with the event that I had already.

You know what? Rely is a sickness of lonely. And too care what people think of you also a symptom of afraid of being lonely. Nowadays I am trying to be enjoy the the time of being alone, you just don't care what people see about you, think about you ( most of the time people might not put any attention on you but you just feel it yourself cause you too care what people think about you, sometimes i think the way i dress bring attention too much ur huh, but i don't mind ppl look at me in a positive way )

Since I am in a bad mood, so I as a weirdo want to post something pretty that can make me happy. I just got back my laptop and all of the pictures taken in Bali. So Im going to post some!

Hi just to say Hello

It has been a long time that I didn't update my blog, my laptop just came back from repaired, costed me a lot, Apple such a branded brand, even repair price also branded. I am here for nothing actually, nothing specific thing want to post, remember how passion I was to update my blog but now I just lost it somewhere.

What makes me here? I want to tell that finally the only place I can express my thoughts was invaded - Twitter. I cant be making a new account again right, so just let it go la since Ive been thinking how to get rid from social media. I'm trying remove my addiction bit by bit.

Whats he actually thinking? Once he knew I have twitter account, he let me followed him, and of course I don't let him to follow me cause twitter is the place I hide for secrets, I only allow my bestie to follow me.

Just yesterday, he took my phone and then doing something secret again ( he likes taking my phone doing weird things ) I asked him:" What you want to do with my phone again" and I forgot what he said. I got back home and opened my twitter, and I saw a new notification, then I clicked and see - N is now following you. LOL WTH?! Fine. I cant be block him right? Since he wants it so desperately till wants to follow me without my permission. I want to see whats he going to do and I think I should use this chance to deactivate myself in social media, doesnt it?

Hmm, so far the progress is not bad, I still tweeting, but seems theres many restriction, I tweeted less. And instagram, I didn't post pictures for two events already. Doenst its a good start too? I still addicted with it, I always think I want to post something, but I try my best not to. Taadaa, I can do it! Lets doing something more meaningful la!

See what else I can do and what kind of excuses I can find! "determination mode" is on!

Heheh, post some latest photo of myself. ( These were taken in Bali )