I'm just feeling so damn guilty not updating my blog while the others still have not gave up yet and visit my blog again and again. I've tried to update few times ago but most of them I typed till halfway and saved them as drafts. I guess I just do not have the patience to finish it up.
Although I did not update my blog long time ago but I still consistently came back and look at my old posts, for me now, I think they were kinda childish, haha.
And this time I update, I am not going to share anything about my life, if you really want to know, I rather talk in person, because I need a lot of time to update a complete post, and I do not know how many friends actually reading all these, maybe none? So I am not going to waste my time.
Throwback 2 years ago, I always updated my blog because that time many of my friends really read it, and I updated it for my friends. And now, after I found out they only read it if I called so, so no point doesnt it? If you do not care, I wont bother it also, I would not repeat doing the stupid things.
You know how close friends can become strangers at the end? When I was so care, and you guys do not even put efforts, I disappointed and gave up, and so when you guys realised and come back to me, sorry I have lost the interest. I do not even bother to talk to you and know about your life, and not even feel like want to tell you about mine as well.
How many effort have I paid? I sound so selfish. Well I tell you, 2 years. I got bunch of friends, I cant afford to bond to so many, so I have to choose and see who deserves my goodness. You might say I'm so realistic, maybe I am, but I rather called it - I do not want to get hurt and disappoint myself. Nothing wrong about it.
It has been so many times I complained or nagging about it, just wanna tell myself its time to move on. I am not telling how gorgeous and fantastic I am, if you like me, you stay if not you leave. Who knows me will know I not even care losing someone who doesnt even deserve, cause I will able to find a better one.
Well if I update, probably all about pics. See ya.
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