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03 November 2013

I'M SO SILLY

Things had already happened for two days.
Now the thing make me sad is the one I called best friend she didn't do her job - yeah, as a best friend.
Now I wonder what is Best Friend again.
I have another definition for best friend already.
Best friend is you will do everything for her no matter you're busy, sick or whatever…AND she will do the same for you. It's pay by 2 people.

Well, why I'm so care about this, just let it go, you can't force any people treat you same why.
It's just silly or stupid that you do all the things for her/him but not get back anything.
Well don't say get back, I just want the concern, enough concern, not like the concern of normal friends - Hey, how are you. Hey, are you alright? That's all.
Learn from the lesson, don't repeat anymore.

Whatever you do, they have get used with your kindness and concern and everything. They think " yea, i still have the one who concern me when i'm sad, she is my "best friend" a friend who i need when i am down" They don't appreciate!

I REALLY THINK IM SO SILLY FOR DOING ALL THESE THINGS FOR HER/HIM.

Yea, actually what I want?
If I want the same way back, find the gang who really will appreciate you, and do all these things for them.
Now I realised how much different from them to her. The real friends.
I'm not sad all the time, I have been so optimistic all the time till yesterday the incident happened, I just need you at that moment.

I know you're busy for school things, friendship stuff, relationship stuff or club things as usual.
So when I'm alright, I can understand you.
But, it's just so abnormal that I was emotional and sad and cried so hard.
Can you just put down everything and concern about me? WELL YOU DIDN'T.
That's why I get back - I'm a fool for waiting you.
I'm still wait for the words from you until today even now the problem is solved. ( not in a good way but at least everything passed.)

You make me so down till I really feel disappointed and down!
How I'm gonna to face you anymore, you still I'm your best friend and play jokes as usual anymore, sorry no more.
You don't know how sad I am for all these.
When I looked at your status your tweet, I feel so irony.
Oh, you have been busy for all these stuffs.

Maybe you think I'm strong enough, optimistic enough, clever enough to overcome all this circumstance?
Well you're wrong but whatver, everything its just too late.
Another one, I'm just too stupid and naive and believe every words you said.
You're not that weak and sad and need me so desperately, from what you said and how you looked.

I'm so silly that I put down everything when you're sad, really sad and said want to die.
I stopped studying and keep replied your messages.
Now I realised how stupid I was. SILLY ME.
Another way get betrayed by best friend? Good enough.






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