Studies

This will probably a short post I think, just thinking using English update my blog, at least one.

Except studies, I really seldom use and speak English. I think my English still weak.

Today is a happy day, I think? Maybe it's because I finished Biology Mock Unit 1, at least I've finished two mock, Bio 1 and Math. I know I still have Unit 2 and both Unit for Chemistry.

I spent like 4-5 days to finish reading my Bio Unit 1, which contains 2 topics and 8 sub-topics. I'm feeling satisfied because I've done at least half of the pass year question book. I'm not saying I'm hardworking enough but at least I have done something. When I see my pass year question book, I feel happy. I highlight those question key words and paste "sticky memo" to label all the important topics. I really work hard and spend a lot of time on Biology.

I found a private library in Damansara, a place really comfortable for me to study and concentrate. I can't really concentrate and study at home, I'll scroll my phone non-stop, daydreaming and the bed in my room just so attractive to me. I know this is such a rubbish excuse but at least I try to solve my problem right. I purposely drive there to study, I only have to pay for the petrol fees, parking and entry are free of charge.

Talk about the Chemistry mock, OMG, I really sucks on it cause I don't feel interest on Chemistry, it's just boring. I have to sit for Chemistry mock unit 1& 2 next two weeks. I start everything from zero. I don't know how I'm gonna to finish it, but let's just do it.

Oh ya, I just got back my Math Mock's result. It consider not bad cause I was study it at last minute. I think I can do better next time. I'll start work hard for Math. The Math teacher didn't like me at first cause I don't really concentrate when she's teaching. But still I get better result compared to those who listen to her and finish all her homework. She looked at my marks and I told her I got few careless mistake which I shouldn't make, and she was just smiling and tell me be careful next time.

That's something happened past few days. Let's talked about why I skipped my Biology mock on Saturday. I wasn't skipped it purposely but I felt so dead when I woke up on Saturday morning. I felt really depress and hopeless cause my brain was blank totally. I felt I was gonna to die if I sit for the mock that day. Maybe it's the second or third time I felt so hopeless cause my brain couldn't think and remember what I've studied. I felt like crying, it's totally impossible for me to sit for exam. The day before - I mean Friday, I was so tired because I'd just finished Math mock and I lacked of sleep. And I felt really stress for Biology cause Biology is the subject which I really care, I'd done my revision actually but the memories went fade because I didn't study consistently.

I knew that we still can sit for mock if we've missed it. So, I just texted my Biology teacher - Mr Ronnie, a really nice guy, I told him I wasn't feeling well and I would absent for mock. The Saturday evening, he sent me the replacement time for mock. Thank you him so much. He set Wednesday as my replacement for mock and called me to remind him on Wednesday morning. 

I was like prepare everything well, and gonna sit for it on Wednesday. After I texted him in the morning, he said he couldn't make it and I'm like WHAT?! I wanted to end early because I want spend time on my revision for Chemistry. Whatever, he delayed it one day after, mean today.

In the morning, I phoned him and he's already arrived the stuff room at 8am ( I had my test inside the stuff room ). Well, I was sitting aside and waiting him to find the mock paper for me. He's really blur lecturer. He couldn't find the paper at his office and even his car. I was seeing him walk here and there just to find a set of paper. He said:" Paper lost, do you free at 2pm?" Of course I'm not free because I still got another lecture class. He continued to find the paper, that time I felt really speechless. Until 8:30am, finally, he found the paper. The duration of the paper only 1 and half an hour. He kept "shhhhh" me cause the time was end and wanted me to stop writing and I said "wait wait wait give me a minute, last sentence!"( the point here is I think he's such a cute lecturer ).

I didn't manage to finish all the questions, I left a really small part. However, I knew all the answers ( it doesn't mean I get it all right. I just felt like I know how to answer, thats it)

I bought the M&M chocolate and I asked him want the chocolate or not and he said:" I want! The green colour!" When I poured the chocolate onto his hand, really came out a green colour one! And he was like WAO! That time my friends and I were laughing.

People only know appreciate after something bad is happened and we lost it forever. I do. I'm feeling really sorry to xxxxxxx, I try my best to appreciate everything now. Hope I can do it.

Well, this post is not short at all and I've spent an hour to type it. Okay, stop here. I'll back soon. Love you, xoxo.