~My world must full of colour~

31 January 2013

Biggest JOKE ever

OMG, I got a shock new from my friend. I'm still can't believe what he has told me. I'm just HUH? WHAT?! YOU'RE JOKING OR WHAT?

Do you curious enough? I'm here not to show off or what but its really happened. I'm just.. it can't be it and is it all my fault?

My friend told me seriously:" Can you please stop blogging about some love stuffs or whatever like your love feeling to someone? WHAT? I'm shock!

I asked:" What's happening? Why you said that?" I was very worry cause I scared I have offended someone.

"Well, not a big deal actually, but can you just follow?" I just like WHAT?! THIS IS THE ANSWER? "Sorry I can't if you don't tell me what's going on..."

"It's secret, I can't tell you" he said. OMG, the curiosity get the better of me, I'm gonna kill cat soon! >< "Why why why, I must know what's is happening!"

After half an hour...

"Okay, I tell you but you cannot let him know!" HIM? Who is the HIM? I was getting blur. " okay okay okay, tell me now, fast."

" My friend, the person you know too( but not close and maybe not even talk, he don't know how close me and HIM) he constantly read your blog." "Well, I'm happy for that, so what is the point?" I still don't understand, silly me.

" how stupid are you?! This means that he likes you and when he see your lovely-stuff then he get hurt", he scold me! How dare this bitch! >^<

"So...WHAT..can you repeat?" "I SAID..."
LIKE ME? It's not gonna to happen, hahaha, what's a funny joke. I'm never hear someone say love me. "You this bitch...!" My friend gonna hit me.

"Okay, i tried to believe you. Who is him? " MY FRIEND! I wouldn't tell you his name, it's enough." I'm... panic...

He HURT? The person I don't know hurt because of my posts? It's still like a joke, the biggest ever.

I tell my friend:" Well, I don't know who you are mention and I also don't know will I gonna to believe whatever you say but I will just follow my feeling and write what I gonna write - maybe I will try to make something clear in my blog..I'm still single and available, and have no feeling toward other. Is that fair enough?" He then laughed loudly and asked:" no feeling toward other? How about the crush?" "Yeah, he's my crush, previous crush, former crush but not now!"

"Well, I'm gonna see what will you write next." THIS BITCH!

So listen listen LISTEN here, the one who constantly see my blog, I'm not in love with someone so DON'T THINK THAT MUCH AND GET HURT.

I also don't know what I try to explain, this very weird okay? And I don't know who is him. I'm crazy soon. Why I believe what my friend said? Maybe he's now sitting in front of computer and laughing at me.

STOP HERE!
Ps: Bitch, does this enough for you?

Sigh

It's so hard to ignore someone who once meant so much to you. Yeah, it's truth, totally.

It's express why I still feel excited or expected from my previous crush - that's the reason! He has meant so much to me for a period of time.

We are just like kite... Sometimes near but sometimes far...While I have tried to let go, he keeps appear in my life. It's like never has an ending. Sigh.

I do not know how it will turn out to be?
I hope everything will be alright. My friends asked me what is the ending that I expect or ask for? I said I do not know and I'm also not willing to think about it.

I don't know much about him and I don't know what he is actually thinking. He is just like...how to say that..he always change..he is passionately sometime but also cool, I don't exactly know about him.
His passion surprised you but his cold hurt you.

Do you know that, in still waiting his reply.

30 January 2013

以事论事2

哎呀,真是日有所思夜夜有所梦
对不起,思想邪恶了一下
爸比真是妒忌我可以睡得晚,老早(中午12了)叫醒我
他说油漆工人要来,要我看着他
是哦,我们整间家油新漆呢

一起床当然是赶快上面子书看留言了
就看到那位豹纹妹写:“你最好删掉它”
期待了一整晚他就回我这几句话,太敷衍我了吧
原本还想找人顶顶嘴

第一反应是他在威胁我吗
我知道他有位男朋友啦,而且她男朋友染一头金发,看起来就很不好惹
我在想如果我惹到她会有什么后果
被一群网友杯葛还有到我的留言墙上骂我

过后看到她的气势落了下去
做人别得寸进尺,会被人讨厌,何况他没得罪我我也不会惹他
我写“为什么?我有中伤林美俞吗?如果你给我合理解释,我会考虑删掉”

然后看到她之前的留言删掉了,也许他想息事宁人,我也别逼人太甚,也将留言删掉它咯
似乎告一段落了
算了,没东西做也别找这些来玩
去找新目标,拜拜!

29 January 2013

以事论事

最近很喜欢与网友"吵架"
没有啦,是以事论事,我用词都很恰当
只不过有些得罪我的人,我的字语之间就会多多得罪啦
不过我不会做人身攻击或则用脏话骂你
因为这不是受过教育的人做的事

我跟谁吵架了啊?
没有啦,就是有个叫林美喻的小红人说错一句话引起风波
我对他的话倒不是很在意
只是看到一些蛮美的网友用脏话来骂人就感觉很不顺眼
我就写:美女说脏话,没有那种高尚品德,说话还给力吗?

有个自称豹纹妹说:美女为什么不能说脏话,这是代表自己的性格,懂?不说的人都是做作,这位小姐,难道你是这样的人?艾薇儿也不是这样,将那些人不是不可以喜欢他?还有bla bla bla一大堆

看见这位女网友的话就很好笑,她把说脏话代表个人标志?为什么有那么不成熟的人,他爸爸妈妈看了一定很伤心

我就复她:请你别强逼林美俞对号入座,他有说脏话吗?你别莫名让他做了你的待罪羔羊。我在说林美渝吗?我说的是网友,你的理解能力真差。你好笑吗?你幼稚吗?不讲粗口是做作?你打自娘胎没人教你要有礼貌?自以为很有性格?别让他人耻笑,难道有礼貌是给高等级的?没办法,我们等级不一样。还有哦,骂脏话是表现自己的性格?是,恶劣的性格!没有更优美的字表示自己的不满吗?这证明你没受过教育,粗话不过是词穷的代表。你妈妈听到你这样说还真替你难过,我也替你难过。

哈哈,我很邪恶的在等待他的回复,很兴奋地说。即使绞尽脑汁我都要好好"教导"他一下,帮他洗洗脑。那些话我一溜嘴就说了,期待他的回复哦^_^(变态)


You lose

Don't compare
Don't jealous
Cause you are not able to accept you have lose the game

Him & Him

OMG, I saw him that day, don't ask who was him cause I'm not gonna to tell you.

I'm a bit nervous and shy and just want to run away cause don't know what to do, well its first reaction. After I have comforted myself and just act that I DON'T SEE YOU. Sorry, we are not close but that's some reason that made me run away, don't ask DON'T ASK. I think he saw me but actually I also not that sure.

Another HIM. He replied my message yesterday and I also have forgot that I send him massage and I also forgot that do I angry him cause he didn't reply me. HE ALWAYS DO THAT. Well, he want to dates me and have a long chat, he said. I'm just surprised and said yes, so why not? You know, HE DON'T REPLY AGAIN. I don't know whether he seldom on for Facebook or what but I have decided do not send him any message and just wait for his reply. He is not the only one I waiting for OKAY?!

Tell the truth, if he has set the date I will a bit excited cause he was my crush before. I don't know now. I think it's not. PLS DON'T ASK ME WOULD I AGREE IF HE WANT ME TO BE HIS GF! I don't think so far and I have no feeling to him now. JUST HE'S MY CRUSH OKAY! But..he still the one..he's a perfect boy friend I think. I'm thinking where to go, only have a talk? I prefer go sing k or genting highland or shopping together. MAYBE HE DON'T THINK SO, so let him decided. I'm not nervous cause I'm not the first time stay with him alone - I means only 2 of us, he and I.

I think I wouldn't shy or heartbeat increase or whatever, but just excited. I think this is a normal reaction. Don't be so surprise please. Just calm down.

Stop here, bye <3



First car lesson

Hey, today is 29th of January! Just do a little bit update at here.

Well, I went to learn car today.. Yeah, first lesson!

Don't ask me feel scary or nervous or not! It's just normal okay...

You just have to learn a bit driving skill and just like you play those 'car' in the Game Center.

You have to memorise the gear 1,2,3 & 4.. That's no much difficult..

You have to practice more then you can control it easily.

I have a bit worry because I just learn how to start engine and change gear for not more than half an hour then the uncle want me go to highway.

OMG, it's a bit traffic jam and many cars.
The uncle just told me that not looking at the cars beside and just look front, only care about the car in front.

Well, 2 hour lesson today and not bad. I can drive but sometime have to remind me what to do cause if I see many car then I'm a bit panic.><

Still can't drive alone or not enough confident (2 hours then want confident??! Think too much haha.)

It's a bit annoying that when in the gear1 then have to step on the clutch and loose slowly if the car start to move.

Whatever, manual car is annoying! Why don't they use auto car?! NO MONEY, I know. T~T

Don't think about it first, jump to another topic!

Oh yeah, I bought books yesterday and have almost used RM200! I also haven't counted that I have spent almost RM150 and above last week only for books! Spent too much of money already and no income now! I have set the target that after got the Lisence and start working and learning English! Go for it go for it!

红人

 
最近有几位红人在面子书引起骂战
本人倒是有一点看法啦

有位红人说做人最主要做自己,他喜欢说臭话不顾形象是他的事

我觉得做自己不是问题,要知道自己是红人讲话就避忌点,别教坏那些粉丝们。就好像那些明星们啊,如果他们的形象和话语之间会带来负面的示范,他们会被人杯葛,引起大骚动的话政府和公司都会施压。

另外一位红人因为一个乡下人而说"乡下人就是乡下人..."类似的话而引起很多人的不满。虽然过后他也道了歉,但是有些人却还是不满意

我的看法就是红人讲话还是要避忌啊,你骂就骂那个得罪你的人就好,为什么要骂全部乡下人。我倒不是很清楚他是因为引起骚动而道歉还是真的知错而道歉。大家都知道吧,红人为什么要做红人,因为要大家的支持和认同,看到自己被他人辱骂,看见形势不对就道歉的话,根本不算道歉。道歉就要好好的道歉,慎重地道歉才能得到别人的原谅,即使别人说话怎样难听都得吞声忍气,毕竟自己用词不当,说错话得罪大众。因为自己本身是红人,说一句话会带来很大的影响,所以讲话用词要恰当,不是一句做自己就行了,这是红人要负责的一个责任。你做红人是要他人的支持和认同,所以态度一定要客气礼貌,也不失自己的风格。

要记得你自己的赞和支持都是粉丝投而得来的,没有他们你们什么也不是。礼貌的红人是大家都喜欢的,既亲民又好相处。

粉丝们也不要盲目的偏帮自己支持的红人,如果红人错了或则态度不好,粉丝应该像红人反映;而不是盲目地帮红人反驳那些给意见的人。我觉得有些粉丝很白目,他支持的红人是很美,但是美女做错就如皇子犯罪与庶民同罪一样,都是做错了,不应该去辱骂那些网友因为妒忌红人美还是网友不够红人美而没有资格作出评论,要知道也许你自己也没那么美。我们现在都拥有言论自由,恰当的评论是应该的,不应该做人身攻击。我们都是文明社会的人,应该以事论事。

我看见那些粉丝偏帮红人,反而让我很讨厌那位红人,反而对那些白目粉丝除了当他们白目以外,都没什么印象了,所以这样反而害了那位红人呢。要做就做用高尚品德的粉丝,明白事理的粉丝,毕竟你自己不因为红人的态度不恰当而喜欢那位红人吧,那你真的够白目了。

所以无论做红人还是粉丝,凡事适可而止,点到即可

27 January 2013

Ordinary?

 
I'm getting bored of my life.

I think I started to wake up from my ordinary and boring life.

I know I only will let myself sink in this not practical life for an instant.

Because I'm not an ordinary girl all in all, at least I know I don't want ordinary life.

A temporary ordinary life just to make myself calm and rest to continue go through my life.

I found my friends have followed me and bought the colourful fake hair.

I'm just so surprise cause when I appeared in front of them with those fake hair and then just so shocked and can't accepted it.

What it have means? I'm on top of the fashion! ^^ this have to thank my mum because I learn all these from my mum, it makes me different.

Everything she buy must be sharp and special which can get attention from people.

That's why I don't like those Korea-style clothes in Sungai Wang and Time Square or whatever place because those clothes look fade and bad quality. My mum always say those clothes she already want to throw into rubbish bin.

I don't know myself well.. Sometimes I just think I want ordinary life and I'm just nothing in the world. Sometimes I know I couldn't be the top and only 1 in the world but at least I want to be special in my social group. I just always want everybody put their attention on me. I don't mean myself beautiful but special - at least I'm needed by somebody..not somebody but everybody. This symptom states that my heart feel lonely, that's why I need security that much.

I don't know and can't imagine how my future life would be. It's too many miracle and destiny in life. Maybe what you want wouldn't come true but will be surprise by other miracle or stuff, something you never imagine...maybe you think its ridiculous...but its happened in life - in your life. You think what will you be but the dreams not always come true.

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Hanging out with my family, always do that nowadays.

Hope I have better life. Good luck! Bye.


The Impossible


I watched < The Impossible > yesterday, it's really nice and amazing.

Don't you agree that a movie which makes audiences shed tears is a nice movie? ( well, I cried, yeah, I really cried)

In my opinion this plot is a bit boring but full of the feeling of touching and love

How could I say the plot is boring! I mean maybe the story is run exactly how the previous or former movie we have watched, but I think this movie has focused on how the actors express the emotion, expression and feeling of facing all these disaster.

I want to praise that the actors are really play well in the movie.

This movie is based on true story of a Spanish family's experience the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami and they survived.

This movie runs exactly what the Spanish family had experienced and their names are used in the movie too except the Dad...the Spanish dad called Quique but the dad in the movie call Henry (luckily he is not call Harry if not I will overflow of tears)

I recently watched <The Tower > & < The Impossible>

Two movies are about how the roles face the disaster and survive

If compare this two movie, I prefer < The Impossible> because the story presents relation and love between the family members but < The Tower > represent couple love and a bit of family love, I mean the feeling not that strong.

Family love is so much touching than couple love

The story of < The Tower > is not that boring because the scene spectacular, the plot is not bad but lack of the feeling of love

I'm so in love with the 4 children in the movie, Lucas ( Tom Holland ), Thomas ( Samuel Joslin ), Simon ( Oaklee Pendergast ) & Daniel ( Johan Sundberg )... All of them so cute especially Thomas, Simon and Daniel. Daniel has blonde hair who like an angel. Simon so young and his act really cute and innocent. Even their acting not that skillful and perfect but it give nature feel.

Real Story of Spanish Family •••••>
BASKING in the hot Thai sunshine, Maria Alvarez smiled as her three sons played with their dad in the hotel pool.
It seemed like the perfect Christmas break for the Spanish family of five.
But then the splashing and laughter were drowned out by a deafening roar and Maria watched in horror as a towering wave pushed in from the sea and ripped through the hotel.
The family’s Far Eastern holiday over Christmas 2004 had ended in disaster — caught up in the Boxing Day tsunami which killed around 240,000 people in 14 countries.

Now their amazing tale of survival has inspired the film The Impossible, which opened in cinemas this week and stars Ewan McGregor, Naomi Watts and teen newcomer Tom Holland as ten-year-old Lucas Alvarez.

Recalling the moment the tsunami struck, Maria, a doctor, says: “The wave is big on the cinema screen but in real life it was so much more. It was everything.”

In an instant, she found herself separated from Lucas, husband Quique and younger sons Tomas, eight, and five-year-old Simon.

The wave smashed her against a plate glass window which exploded behind her and she was swept through the hotel.

She says: “I remember being pushed against walls. You could feel them trembling and breaking, feeling them as they gave way, one after another.
“Some of the walls did not collapse — that’s why people died. They were trapped.

“I was under the water for a long, long time. I was not in physical pain but the drowning sensation was like being in a spin-dryer. “The doctors said I was underwater for more than three minutes because my lungs were absolutely full of water. I saw many lights under the water, tunnels with lights at the end, that people tell you they see when they are going to die.”

Like Lucas and Maria, Quique doesn’t know how long he was underwater.
He says: “I thought, ‘That’s it, I’m not going to make it.’ But I needed to try. I saw a light above me, so I tried to push myself up and get my head out of the water.”

He surfaced in the torrent, more than half a mile downstream from the hotel, and says: “The only thing I could see was water and the tops of the trees. I was alone. “I thought there was no way my children had made it. I started to cry and then I thought, ‘Why are you crying when there is no one to comfort you?’”

Quique managed to grab hold of a tree and thinks he hung on for about half an hour as the raging waters roared past him.

He says: “Then I heard Tomas’s voice. He was shouting, ‘Papa! Mama! Lucas!
The eight-year-old was perched on top of a tree, about 200 yards away. Quique swam over and recalls: “We both felt we were the only two who had made it.”

They started shouting for the others and after about 40 minutes they heard Simon’s voice. Though he was only five and had only just learned to swim, he had also managed to escape up a tree.

When the waters sank, Quique took the children to the safety of the roof of their hotel, the Orchard Resort in Phuket.

Meanwhile, as the raging water swept Maria along, she was convinced her whole family had been killed. She says: “I thought life was not worth living if I was alone.” And then she surfaced, in the middle of the torrent. She says: “I was devastated. I was all alone.” She grabbed a tree, then miraculously she saw Lucas being swept past in the water. She says: “When I saw him I thought how stupid I had been. I thought I would spend the rest of my life hugging Lucas again — that was my only purpose in life.”

Maria let go of her tree and fought her way through the water to reach her son’s side.

Lucas — who is now 18 and studying medicine at University College, London — recalls: “I had never seen anything of the scale of that wave. It might as well have been the apocalypse.
“I remember my mother screaming my name. I jumped into the swimming pool — I don’t know why. It probably saved my life but I didn’t think about it.
“I don’t know exactly what happened next. The entire time I was underwater I must have been unconscious. The next thing I remember is seeing my mother.”

Fighting for life ... Naomi Watts as Maria Alvarez in the flick
As the wave hurtled on, Maria and Lucas were battered along together, only to be separated again by the undertow.

Finally the waters calmed and they found themselves waist deep in a swamp. It was then that Lucas noticed Maria’s leg had been torn open and she had deep gashes to her chest. Shock had made her oblivious to her injuries.

He then spotted a huge tree which he thought they could climb to safety, but as they waded towards it, they heard a child crying.

Lucas, terrified the wave was going to return, and convinced his brothers were dead, didn’t want to stop — but Maria insisted.

She says: “What if that child was Simon or Tomas? It was important that I showed my son the right way to behave, particularly as I was dying. You feel it.”

Lucas says: “I realised if we didn’t get out of there, things could go very wrong. I was only ten — I had no idea what was going on. But I really started to see Mum might be dying. She kept going in and out of consciousness.”
Maria and Lucas found the little boy they had heard — a Swedish toddler called Daniel — trapped beneath the flotsam.

Lucas then managed to carry both Daniel and his mother to safety, as by then Maria was far too weak to fend for herself.

The three were finally rescued by villagers who took them to hospital in the nearest town, Takua Pa.
The hospital was overflowing with wounded, dying and the bereaved who were desperately searching for family members.

Then began the next stage of Lucas’s ordeal. He says: “Mum was bleeding internally very badly and had to be operated on. She had infections from everything she had swallowed, and from her wounds.”

After Maria’s operation, the overworked staff misidentified her and Lucas returned to his mother’s bedside to find she had vanished.

He says: “I thought they had taken her away because she had died. It was the first time that I properly panicked. I thought I was completely on my own. For there was no question in my mind that my father and brothers were dead.”

But his father was alive and was looking for them. His search took several days, but the family were eventually reunited.

Since the tsunami, many survivors have returned every Christmas for remembrance ceremonies but, feeling awkward about their relative good luck in all living through the disaster, the family have not kept in touch with other survivors.

Lucas says: “I spoke to a Swedish boy at the hospital. He had come to Thailand with both parents and four siblings and he was flying back with his mother. Everyone else was dead. It felt really unfair.

“Everyone in the family had one person they connected with in the whole thing.
“For my mother it was Daniel. We have always wanted to find out what happened to him.”

Maria says: “I feel like I have another son somewhere living in Sweden. I would love to know how Daniel has grown up.”

Only read the story I can feel how sad and touching, I just couldn't imagine if it was happened on me how could I handle it like Maria and Lucas. How brave was Maria, she leg was injured and have to walk in the water. I think I maybe just let it go and give up, can't imagine how pain it was. I don't think I will survive from this, I can't swim also!

If go have chance, please go and watch it! This movie is really nice and touching. A movie made me cry! A very warm movie.
Spanish family who experienced India Ocean's tsunami on 2004
 
Family in the movie
 
Maria ( Noami Watts )
 
Lucas ( Tom Holland )
ps: very good and young actor
Henry ( Ewan Mcgregor )
 
Thomas ( Samuel Joslin )
ps: He's very cute in the movie and this picture makes he looks cool and mature but he's still very handsome!
 
Simon ( Oaklee Pendergast )
The cutest picture I could find. He's much cute in the movie and he acted super cute in the movie like a young naughty boy! BIG LOVE!
 
Daniel ( Johan Sundberg ) --> youngest child with blonde hair
I couldn't find is picture and this only I found ( maybe he just a normal actor cause i think he don't talk moe than 10 words in the movie, he just keep smiling and act nothing ) He's much cuter in the movie with a pair of stunning eyes and sweetest smile. He's just like an angel!
 
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坏脾气?

哈咯,大家可好?

我当然好得很,就每天赖在家啊

今天的主题啊就是<我的脾气?>

就啊,对自己真正的脾气疑惑啊

妈咪爸比都讲我脾气很好(也许是因为是父母大人吧?)

何时开始怀疑自己的脾气?

就是因为...

就是我最近炒了一个驾车叔叔的鱿鱼

因为我觉得那个驾车叔叔没有责任感

答应了却没做到

然后我就换了另一个驾车叔叔

这个新的驾车叔叔态度很好,很快就安排我去考驾驶照

但是然后他跟我讲三天就可以拿到驾驶照

我等了足足10天才信息问他,怎么知道我发了三四个信息他都不回我,打电话也不回我

最后我发的一个信息很明显表示我的不悦

是不是脾气不好呢

但是我很着急,爸爸妈妈也在催了

还有就是我曾经跟我一个朋友吵架(没正面吵啦)

就我那个朋友误会我说的话

我就三番四次解释和澄清但是他却没理会我

我就脾气来了,我觉得自己很委屈,我也没有错

于是开始在部落格的文字中放暗箭,也写了一些很伤人的话(就是很伤感情的话)

还有另外一件事就是我不忿我的一群朋友们要忍耐一个千金小姐而不敢出声但是在私下却一直抱怨

我这个人就开始在打抱不平,现在想起就觉得不该做那一档儿的事,因为说了伤感情以外,也没人会特别感谢你啊,全部人都是抱着看热闹的心情

其实也不干我事,烧到我才应该开口吧

不懂几时开始我会变到那么有话直说,如此直肠子,得罪人多了吧?

ps:事已境迁,我只是拿来做比喻,请别又对号入座

这些是不是证明自己脾气都不好啊?

好像是最近就开始这样了,不是吧,要出商场接触社会就脾气转坏了?

谁可以告诉我是不是这样了?那我以后还可以忍受老板的脾气吗?

T~T 。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。




22 January 2013

脑海

我要深深把你烙在我脑海里
因为那么的曾经你陪我走过
曾经,现在,也许还有以后
我曾经为了想你而彻夜未眠
所以,我要用一辈子来爱你
我要你一辈子占据我的脑海

-------一时代1D-------------


21 January 2013

OAT!!!

In hungry HunGry HUNGRY!!!!!

Mum tell me that I cannot have my dinner except drink OAT

What the disgusting drink I never want to dink ( except milk, I HATE milk also )

Why the healthy drinks taste so disgusting that I always want to vomit?

I couldn't understand! No dinner no oat, I hungry I die! TT

Well I'm so jealous one of my friend who always eat dessert ( at least one per day) but she don't need exercise and don't need keep fit, what I know is maybe she has skipped her breakfast or dinner just for dessert.

Isn't eat dessert is high calories that eat rice or noodle? I just couldn't understand! I'm just very jealous of it.

Well well well I know I have to drink OAT!

20 January 2013

无聊

生活到现在倒是开始闷了
但是我还有好多的小说和戏还没看完呢
可是每天看小说和戏倒是闷啊
现在倒是等着我何时能去学车
在家里待着不是办法啊
可别到了上大学的时候这个还未完成、那个还未完成
连写各部落格也没东西写,你知道我多闷了吧
但是昨天帮三个好朋友们庆祝生日,但是其中一个缺席呢
我本想看看他打开我生日礼物的时候惊讶表情,真可惜啊
他们说约我下个星期到TS逛街,可是我不知道妈妈给不给呢
因为下个星期六我又与他人有约
烦恼己自知,我可还是不要自寻烦恼
快乐的享受现在的生活吧

18 January 2013

那么难?

没想到那么难,我还是做仙算了

我的体质到底怎么了,那么努力却还是无法瘦下来

心灰意冷了我,每天运动三个小时都是徒劳的

想当年运动一小时就行了,一个月瘦6kg

16 January 2013

EXERCISE

OMG, I went to exercise yesterday, I have exercised 3 hours.
Terrible man, 3 HOURS.
I think I'm half death right now.
Every muscle in my body is pain like hell, I just wish I cant move every part of my body.
I think it was yoga problem, the every move of yoga was difficult and suffer for me, I not even have trained before.
2 hours on the exercise machine was quite boring, 20min exercise and rest for 2min for drink water and sit for a while.
I woke up today and weighted myself, WTF, only lost 0.3kg.
I think kill me better than lost my weight.

15 January 2013

愿望

我不知该如何安慰别人
他发生了这些厄运
也许生命好像流星般流熄
像流星飞熄,生命来过了又走了
如此脆弱,如此无助
我如何说服他抱着希望
我如何说服他创造奇迹
我如何说服他继续坚持
为了家人为了爱他的人
我自己也无法相信自己能创造奇迹
我自己无法相信自己能坚持下去
我如何振奋他呢

他原本积极生活,积极为他的孩子而努力不懈
但是命运弄人,让他从此倒下
他命运坎坷,发生在他生上的事排三到来

唯一可以做的事
就是捐我的零用钱
制作祝福卡片
送上关怀
为他祈祷

希望他的生命之灯能壮大
希望他的生命得以延续
我为他送上我的愿望
"祝他远离病魔,恢复健康"


Nowadays

Long time didn't talk about 1D? Am I losing my feeling or love towards them? I'm just so lazy to talk about - about everything.

Waiting for the theory lesson to he finished and after that have to go The Fitness to exercise and at least have to do 3 hours. This what the trainer told me and at least 5 days per week to hit my target in half year.

I don't know I can completed this task or not cause it just like the hardest thing to do and to be promised. My mum still don't know I have skip all the classes and she just said:" how come you can't be slimmer? Something wrong with your hormone?" I just keep quite and feel quite ashamed.

I'm lazy to do anything nowadays, even hang out with friends. I just would like to stay at home and lying on the bed or sofa to watch my drama or just to finish my novel or comics. The only things that can make me out are dinner or movie. I have been lazy for so many days just after the trip, just like I haven't rest enough.

Even I stay all day at home but I get so less rest, I means sleep. I only sleep 3-6 hours per day cause in the middle of the night, I like to enjoy my drama and novel. I have to wake up at 12pm cause my mum force to do so. I always sleep at 7-9am if I want.

Less to chat with friends nowadays cause I really lazy and don't know what to chat for cause I have graduated and seem like we have no common things to chat with. The same topic always appear in the conversation which is "WHAT YOU WANT TO STUDY? HOW ARE YOU? HAVE YOU WORK NOWADAYS? HAVE YOU GET YOUR LISENCE YET?" I have answered all these 100+ times with the same answer. I also don't know what subject I will choose in the future and what I can tell is I'm waiting for the result. I'm fine anyway. Don't need work and just stay at home.

Why have to keep waiting? I'm really hate waiting nowadays. Wait for few hours, I really feel sleepy right now. Can I have my nap, NO. Okay, WELL.


缘分?

很难相信为什么缘分一直让我和他相遇
这意味什么呢
因为他不是对的人,也不可能是对的人

Miracle? Hope?

I feel better right now, I don't know is that me anyway. Thank you 'PENGUIN' sweet words that encourage me throughout this sad event.

HOPE is the miracle and I never used to believe it but it make me feel better and comfortable, at least I have something to do for him - that's all what I need and want. If I lose hope right now then how about him?

It's very hard to keep smiling just to let him know everything is alright, even maybe he know we try to lie to him. But I think he won't feel happy if he see the sadness on us, maybe he feel so depress on it.

I thought I should express my sadness cause this is really sad, but I just forget how he was feel, silly me.

RAYMOND, my new wish in year 2013 is you can fight to the cancer and survive from it! I know many people have try so hard to fight for the cancer and disease and some of them are successful. Even it only left maybe 10% or lesser, but I till hope that you can do it - just do it for your family, relative and friend.

13 January 2013

表哥


昨天听到一个噩耗,一个永远不想要发的恶梦
我的表哥,他得了第四期肺癌
除了惊愕之外还是惊愕,我也不晓得我能有什么反应
之前去探望他的时候,他变得不是我印象里的那个他
我也不记得有多久没见到他,好像是几年前的事,他结婚的时候
我们这么久没见面的原因是因为他日出晚归,忙着加工赚钱
他读的书不多,所以便努力加工博取老板的信任
躺在病床上的他,消瘦到我无法去形容
脸孔苍白到像似惊吓以后,病魔完全的将昔日帅气的他折磨到不像人形
探望他的时候,他一直在抹汗,他痛到飙冷汗,无法言语
我无法了解他的痛,因为他的表情没有狰狞,只是不舒服的样子
没有钱没有医药卡就无法到私人医院看大医生,所以他的病情一直拖了再拖
我们去的当天他的医药报告都还没出来,虽然医生即可能说他极可能得了癌症
当然我们希望他的是良性癌症或者是初期癌症,至少我们可以挽救些什么
几天后我便去问我表姐,没想到得到是这样的噩耗
心仿佛是被揪紧一样透不过气,我问表姐可以化疗还是什么
但是得到的答案是化疗只能增加表哥的剧痛和...死期的到临
“有谁能帮我,有谁能指点我”我对于这个无法作出回应
我也不知道自己能为他做些什么,到现在仿佛这个噩耗是不可相信的谎话一样,无法接受
当天我们去看表哥的时候,跟三姨聊了聊,发现她阔然开朗,片语之间掺杂了笑声
这些笑声曾经安抚我说表哥是会好起来,过后我们会一起聊天
三姨曾经绝望到想自杀,这一切是命运,不可改写的坎坷命运
我妈咪说如果她是三姨的话她会疯掉,我实在不知道为什么三姨会如此坎坷
三姨放弃自杀的念头阔然面对全因为表哥
三姨终日和我的小表哥,也就是三姨的二儿子吵架
我的二表哥也有着坎坷的命运
虽然二表哥没读到书,但是凭着他年轻的时候非常努力在车行打工,终于老板赏识他打算开一间分行让他打理
可是一场噩梦---车祸改写了他的一生,手术后的他不能再弯腰做些剧烈的动作,那他如何可以在车行做下去呢,于是他为的技能也被抹杀了,过后的他就一直颓废下去
大表哥:“妈,不要和二表哥吵架,以后你老了还要靠他”
三姨:“我才不要靠他,我要靠你”
大表哥:“我也想,但是我没有这个能力了”
眼眶溢满了眼泪,我的心真的很酸
不知道大表哥独自面对死亡,是害怕还是彷徨
最可恨的是我的大表嫂因为嫌我表哥穷而离开了他,连她的两个儿子也可以放弃
由于我的表哥申请不到贷款所以屋子就放表嫂的名字,她似乎不愿意将名字割还给我三姨,屋子可是我表哥辛辛苦苦供的
因为种种的原因让身心疲累的表哥病情一触即发,一倒便不起了
难道真的要我接受表哥即将面临死亡,我即将参加他的葬礼
到时别让我看到表嫂,我不知道我会给他什么臭脸看
我所说的一切不过是冰山一角,还有很多心酸的事
如果我写出来我怕自己会崩溃放声大哭,我真的不知道该怎么做
我无法相信三姨会如何面对这件事,我真的不敢想
现在一分一秒也不想想起这件事,我无法承受
我仿佛还是过着生活一样,回归于平静

上天如果愿意,我会尽我的能力帮我表哥,譬如..他的遗愿..

 

12 January 2013

幸运之神



事情没进行得很顺利
似乎头头碰着黑
难道幸运之神忘了要眷顾我
我祈求一切顺顺利利,万事如意

07 January 2013

熟悉的陌生人

现在的心不平静,似乎跳得比平时快
从刚才到现在一直在忙复讯息
也许最主要的都不是这些

刚才和最熟悉的陌生人交谈
他真的从我最熟悉的印象变得很陌生
让我一直在考验到底是不是真的他,还是别人再盗用他的户口
可是他就是他,很陌生的他
也许从我们在熟悉的时候他已经开始在转变

他变瘦了,也许也高了
他变得聪明了
他变得会英语了
他染了头发
他变口花花?
他也...我也说不出
变得很陌生、太陌生

我们不是那种关系
但是他给我的感觉就好像那些男生一样
不在一样了,因为不该一样
星期六,赴约可好?
我就好像要与陌生人见面,如此失措
他在面子书没放照片,完全不知道他转换一个怎样的人
还会有他的影子吗?
跟他见面时不被允许的,而且纸包不住火
他似乎很期待,我却草草应了他
到底是怎样,去、不去?




牵绊



曾经有过牵绊的人,无论到最后是否联系

在一相逢或一句嘘寒问暖的话,一圈圈的涟漪就浮在心底里

像是一朵含苞待放的玫瑰花

他就是一个这样的人,你有遇到这样的一个人吗?




06 January 2013

选择

不要问我为什么,不要问我原因,因为我也不知道

也许我们注定想法和个人价值观都不一样,我们的选择都不一样

选择朋友是我的权利,我相识到的每一位朋友都是缘分,大家想法不同,你可以干涉我与谁做朋友吗?

我根本不是势利眼的人,我不屑与有钱人做朋友,谁不知道他们任意妄为、娇生惯养。我认识这些朋友,他们让我体会人生最难的大道理,那些有钱人永远不会明白的道理。

我是千金小姐又怎么样?我的行为举止和谈吐是成熟和理智的。我这个大小姐明白人情事故,自己会面对难题,学着独立;就好像叫我下去沟渠检羽毛球一样,羽毛球检不着就没有的玩了,范围能力能做到的事,我都会做,这些事很多大小姐,甚至普通人都没做到。

有钱挥霍,谁不会、谁不喜欢?这个是人人都学得会的行为。但是在换取这些的同时而付出了自己喜欢的东西和事物,是真的值得吗?每个人需要的东西不一样,你可以为这些而努力,只要自己开心、自己真正想要的东西就好;但是从不干涉他人、强逼别人。做人自知自明,为人着想,谈吐优雅和明白人情世故是人生莫大的学问。

自己的路,是我自己选、自己走、自己体会。
人生是我自己的,所以不该干涉我的选择。
你向往的却不是我想要的,你又何必强人所难?
人生漫漫长,我希望能选择自己想要走的路,毕竟这些会陪伴我一生一世,我无怨无悔。

命运

家家有难念的经
有人羡慕我的命运很好
不过每个人各有不同的需要和要求
出身好,但是我要背负的责任、我所要付出的代价,又有谁能了解?
无论是什么,我都一直很珍惜我拥有的东西


05 January 2013

有缘无份



遇见,是一种缘分

但不能长相厮守,是有缘无份





04 January 2013

生活琐事

刚刚看了《Life of PI》,从这个简单故事中,我想领悟一些道理来。
毕竟这个故事真的没什么很大的特色/重点,所以它似乎想要诠释某个道理/真谛
但是我似乎没有很大的领悟,也许它单单就是个故事而已

*它要表达“请相信上帝”?所有上帝给的痛苦和不幸;即使他牺牲所有一切;即使主角努力不懈地祷告,一切都是上帝对他的考验和磨难

*他要告诉我们动物都有灵魂?即使到最后都还是无法证实,只是主角盲目地相信

*请不要放弃希望,这点我到认同。如果是我,绝对不会相信奇迹,为指导自己没多大的毅力,我也不相信自己会创造奇迹

不想再探讨这个问题了,下一章

现在还在犹豫明天到底要不要去云顶:

一来最近很爱做孤陋寡闻、深居简出的宅女。

二来上天爱逆我的意,总爱在我兴致勃勃的识泼我冷水,下一场雨让我没得呆在户外

三来我星期天就得去考驾驶试卷,我很荣耀的告诉你们我还没开始读。

四来爸爸好像不是很愿意载我去,万一输钱我就是罪该祸首

也许我还是乖乖呆在家看小说和啃UNDANG BOOK!

话说回来,有人说我缺少了勇气,独立
而我说我自己除了缺少以上的两样,也缺少毅力和机智

最近实在没什么东西可写,毕竟宅女的生活都是不精彩的

爸比被我们冷落了,陪他去吃晚餐,掰掰

01 January 2013

花心男生




又认识了个口花花的男生,看着他的甜言蜜语,我没觉得很开心,反而觉得他很烦、很cheap,可是又不可以不理他们将没有礼貌

这些口花花的男生,以为每个女生会吃他们这一套,可是遇见我,他们算倒霉了。有时我很想骂他们"可以不要将样衰吗?"正经的女生是不会喜欢花心的男生

Happy New Year 2013

Hello everyone, a very Happy New Year 2013 to you babies!
I spent my day (31/12) with my dear friends, unfortunately I didn't countdown with them, cause my mum don't let me stay overnight and should go back home before 12 am.
I went to Karmen's house at 3pm and we chat till 4:30pm to wait another friend to come over to join us and go to Zee Yi's house.
We played badminton together, I was same group with Sin Mei, a very good partner cause we never lose 1 game. We played at the roadside so it's a bit annoying because has many cars passed by.
Once the badminton ball has dropped to drain and no one want go to pick it up, but it's ball that we only have.
I think I'm brave enough and I went down to the drain and picked it up.
They think I'm rich girl who will never do that but I did that...
I'm not who they think I'm, sometimes I'm special, different from others
Zee Yi's mother is so kind, she has prepared many food to us.
After dinner, we went to Zee Yi's room and we played card game together.
It's a lot of fun and laugh, I'm that crazy with them.
The happy time I can't use words to describe how happy I'm.
I wish I still have chance to spend my time with them.
With them, I can let they see how dirty I can, how simple I'm, I don't need to cover myself. I can show my real.

I'm back!

I'M BACK as title so many times already...
Well, I'm back from Spain & Portugal
I'm back to blog something, but not about the stuff of trip, just something another.
I just want to express my feelings, a sad, tired and depress' feelings.
I have so many things/task need to complete
I just listed down the things I want to do, OMG, it's kinda many task I need to complete.
Everything I need to complete is very difficult, just like a long challenge game for me.
I don't know how many efforts I have to pay, but when I think of it, it make me so depress.
The scar, the weight, the license, the result and anything I need to think of.
The future is just very blur, I do not have any favorite subject...
I don't think I should follow what I parent want but I also don't know what I want.
After back from Spain & Portugal, the another day I went to cousin's wedding. A very rich cousin has a very rich husband.
The wedding held in Palace of Golden Horse.
This become a topic which my mum want it as example, as excuses to make me become the daughter she want.
I have a pretty friend, very pretty, very intelligent, and have a very rich and lovely boy friend. Her bf presented a Channel bag which the price is RM 17000, watch which the price is RM 2000+, and gave her a credit card to load.
My mum want me learn from her, what a difficult task I ever seen.
Who she think I'm? I'm just a simple girl.