Ordinary?

 

I'm getting bored of my life.

I think I started to wake up from my ordinary and boring life.

I know I only will let myself sink in this not practical life for an instant.

Because I'm not an ordinary girl all in all, at least I know I don't want ordinary life.

A temporary ordinary life just to make myself calm and rest to continue go through my life.

I found my friends have followed me and bought the colourful fake hair.

I'm just so surprise cause when I appeared in front of them with those fake hair and then just so shocked and can't accepted it.

What it have means? I'm on top of the fashion! ^^ this have to thank my mum because I learn all these from my mum, it makes me different.

Everything she buy must be sharp and special which can get attention from people.

That's why I don't like those Korea-style clothes in Sungai Wang and Time Square or whatever place because those clothes look fade and bad quality. My mum always say those clothes she already want to throw into rubbish bin.

I don't know myself well.. Sometimes I just think I want ordinary life and I'm just nothing in the world. Sometimes I know I couldn't be the top and only 1 in the world but at least I want to be special in my social group. I just always want everybody put their attention on me. I don't mean myself beautiful but special - at least I'm needed by somebody..not somebody but everybody. This symptom states that my heart feel lonely, that's why I need security that much.

I don't know and can't imagine how my future life would be. It's too many miracle and destiny in life. Maybe what you want wouldn't come true but will be surprise by other miracle or stuff, something you never imagine...maybe you think its ridiculous...but its happened in life - in your life. You think what will you be but the dreams not always come true.

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Hanging out with my family, always do that nowadays.

Hope I have better life. Good luck! Bye.