Miracle? Hope?

I feel better right now, I don't know is that me anyway. Thank you 'PENGUIN' sweet words that encourage me throughout this sad event.

HOPE is the miracle and I never used to believe it but it make me feel better and comfortable, at least I have something to do for him - that's all what I need and want. If I lose hope right now then how about him?

It's very hard to keep smiling just to let him know everything is alright, even maybe he know we try to lie to him. But I think he won't feel happy if he see the sadness on us, maybe he feel so depress on it.

I thought I should express my sadness cause this is really sad, but I just forget how he was feel, silly me.

RAYMOND, my new wish in year 2013 is you can fight to the cancer and survive from it! I know many people have try so hard to fight for the cancer and disease and some of them are successful. Even it only left maybe 10% or lesser, but I till hope that you can do it - just do it for your family, relative and friend.